Craziness happened two days ago! I am now home on Winter break, successfully finishing my first semester of college with three A's and a C. Yes, I am not so happy about the C but it was in College Algebra. I do not know what it is about math and my brain but the two subjects just don't click. I am more of an English and history kind of guy. Good thing I am majoring in Political Science. Anyways, being home sucks and I want to go back to Southern Utah University and my wonderful life I had in Cedar City.
I've barley spoken to or seen my parents in two days. I finally came out to them, explaining to them my bi-sexuality and my relationship with Chris. My mom is too over-sensitive and keeps comforting me and explaining to me that they both still love and accept me. If that is the case why is it so awkward around my house. My sister and I never want to be home because of all the weird tension that is possessed on my parents shoulders.
My dad has basically expressed his disapproval of my lifestyle, blaming himself and titling himself as a failure of a father. Personally, if that's the way he wants to feel, I'm going to let him. I am who I am and I am proud of myself for it. I have not been happier in my life than I am now. My life is perfect and its going in the right direction. Nothing and no one is going to ruin the happiness I have created in my life.
My dreams to be a lawyer and politician have not tarnished. No matter how many people tell me that its going to be hard to be what I want to be because of my sexual orientation I am not going to give up. My parents tried bringing that up to me today, I'm sorry but times are changing and the acceptance of gays is growing and it soon will be introduced to congress and I'll have my chance at a spot in office. It is not in my nature to give up on my dreams because of set backs in my life.
I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile, its been really stressful and I'm on break so I haven't touched any form of writing. If you're on break, I hope you are having a great break as well. Oh, and late Merry Christmas and happy New Year.
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u should be very proud of urself! i see a lot of great things for u in the future :)
