I'm back just to stalk blog page and vote in stars mainly,
I'm sorry for how badly I reacted to the drama w gamebots and Portland, truly not proud of my reactiveness and for allowing someone else to get me to stoop that low. I said shit that now that I have had a long time to reflect was really pathetic of me considering my own sexuality (referring to me saying p*z) alas, I was attacked that day and had baseless accusations and ppl trying to troll me for ages before that so it all just kind of went out in a puff of smoke. I litterally rage quit. I didnt get certain peoples jokes and banter in our discord and I will say Johnpopper (Jamal) i dont think you did anything wrong, I was just too sensitive because I didnt know you guys that well. It is what it is, mental health took an all time low during covid and I'm just glad to be here breathing on the other side of it all. I don't fit in with everyone and that's okay!
Secondly, I apologize for posting b**bs to get myself banned, I guess I didn't really think that was as troublesome as it was. To me, I went right back into 2008 tg mentality where a lot more goes, but as an adult and knowing this site has younger players I see why that was also really tacky and wrong. Although I will say I don't think b**bs are the most offensive thing ever, I didn't think about it being something that could traumatize other people. Regardless, I'm rly sorry.
There are several good good eggs on this site and that's why I rejoined. I missed some people and the overall aura of this strange ass website. I am pansexual and gender queer and it took me until late 20s to understand these things. I have been broken before, but I just like everyone else just want acceptance and comradery. If theres unfinished business between you and I, I am open to a conversation. But If we have a turmoilous past and all you wanna do is be confrontational, just stay clear of me because I will be staying clear of you. :* (unless you have a point which I can respect and hear)
Final side-note : I acknowledge that there may be some ppl who don't fwm or have anger towards my actions, and I fully accept that. Some bridges can never be un-burned but just know I'm not here for drama. Or to troll lol
This is my re-attempt of just being nice, Tengaged. Truth is, I'm actually very fucking nice! Just grew up kind of eye for an eye mentality but that's a weak trait I am trying to move beyond. ♡ much love always
I will still goof and be my old self cause that's me ♡
It sounds like you're doing much better than you were over the summer, glad to hear it. My mental health hit some lows during the pandemic as well, so I relate to your struggle.
cheritaisdelicious omg sorry for trolling u lmao. ILl admit I can thrive on chaotic energy but I don't mean for anything beyond light jokes. It's nice to see this site has calmed down ever so slightly? Maybe cause it's less active? Sorry ur going thru what ur going thru on here but thanks for being cool and reaching out :)
Paddy is back huns (respectfully)