Certin events have transpire within the last day or so, when I have had friends backstab me, and other friends use and abuse me, im not going to name names or go into too much other detail.
Now I realize that with these events transpiring, I don't have to live up to certin expectations. I am no longer doing things as a way to pay tribute to somebody, but I am now doing things for myself.
I shouldn't be surprised though that I have been backstabbed, and maybe it is a kind of karmic payback for myself being a backstabber, but what can I say this is a big brother and survivor website, so am I changing my ways, no. When it comes to friends however, I hold myself to certin standard, and when my friends treat me with lower respect then I try to show them, I hurts a lot. If you are some of my friends, you know that I will do everything in my power and more for you.
Anyway, I have been setting a goal for myself to be the #1 ranker on this website in order to pay tribute to some of my friends, but now I realize I don't care that much about karma and color level and all that non-sense.
One goal I am sticking to, however, is my goal of winning one of each game type but October 2014, So far I have only won a Fasting and a Frooks, So I have a while to go. I have only won 1 casting before and merged in survivor once, I have not won a crooks, so those games will be a challenge, and then Hunger and Stars will be even harder. Just getting into those games is hard enough. Not to mention im sure i will have to play a few times before i can win. But nothing is impossible.
After i complete this goal, i honestly have no idea what i want from this site. After i get this goal done, im not even sure i will stay around to be perfectly honest, because i am a very goal oriented person, and if i have no idea what i want to do when im on a game, i easily lose intrest.
But i just wanna give a shout out to some of the true friends i have made in my short time on this site.
