Or is this one of those dreams? Those horrible dreams? That seem like they last forever. If I am alive, why, why, if there is a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone and everything I've ever known? I've ever loved? Stranded. What is the lesson? What is the point? God give me a sign or I have to give up. I can't do this anymore. Please just let me die. Being alive hurts too much.
