Hi, my name is Ryan-José Juanito Garcia, and I'm a 18 years old High School Senior in Missouri. Today, I just realized I'm traveling down the wrong road - lying, cheating, deception, and manipulation are some of the ways my peers could describe me. It's not cool is it? Who would want these qualities? I would - It brought me entertainment, I love to witness other's pain and unhappiness.
Since I love deception - naturally I was interested in Big Brother. They lie and backstab and I love every second. So it was only a matter of time until I found Tengaged. Perfect for me right?
I don't have the cleanest record of playing a fair game in Enrolling games. I lied and backstabbed in CASTING #7411. But it wasn't enough because I came in 3rd. But that's child's play, you can only do so much in a CASTING game.
In Alex1991's Big Brother 2.0, I found a way to keep my hands clean and have others do my dirt and became victorious. But that's nothing either. The dirtiest of dirt can't be spoken of as of yet.
You might be tired of reading this, and I'm not trying to brag to say how good (or bad) of a player I am. This is my confessional. Blaqk is just a reflection of the real me. Good thing it's not a full reflection.
How can I get someone else suspended from school because of something I did?
How did I manage to get someone else detention because I told them to do something stupid - and they listened.
Why did I single-handedly get 3 teachers fired all in one month?
How did I get my school banded from the District School Play?
How did I trick my friend into stealing the Janitor's keys and how did I get him to open all of the locker's on the second floor & dump everything out into the halls at 5 in the morning?
How did I manage my 12 Grades of school without getting in any kind of trouble?
Wanna know why I did it - because I'm just trouble. It's in my nature?
How do I sleep at night? With soft Latin Love songs playing quietly in the night and a smile on my face.
But over the course of these few weeks - I learned I shouldn't be doing all of this. This isn't right - I'm not saying I've changed, but I'm slowly making a change. Tengaged is helping quite a bit - I'm not thinking like a MOBBOSS and I'm enjoying these games. Thank you randomize & everyone who has kept my mind occupied and straying me away from the destructive road I was walking.
-Ryan-José
Comments
This blog was created to help me learn about myself. =)
I'm not a troubled child - I just look at life as a game & the people around me as tools (Which is wrong =P ).
Great blog.. to to able to question oneself like that shows the beginnings of a great man!! Have fun, enjoy pranks but just keep some moderation to it and know when to be a little deeper and more caring... i think, having read your blog, that you already do. Good luck in our current game
Forget all about Blaqk - Blaqk is dead...
I'm not a troubled child - I just look at life as a game & the people around me as tools (Which is wrong =P ).
Comments welcome - but don't be harsh.