So, coming into this, I knew absolutely nobody. The only one that I had even vaguely heard of was Mearl, but I didn't know the extent of his gameplay. I assume it's great, as he did make it into the season, but then again, I would say my gameplay isn't the best whatsoever and I also made it in.

Now, apparently, I was in some other Survivor group games with Aria and Marshall, so I did have a connection with them. Aria and I didn't talk much in the one we were in, although she took notice of the fact that we were in both of these groups and took the opportunity to talk to me immediately. Then, Marshall turns out to be from my last season, China, as well (and on the same tribe I was voted out on) and we also form a bond. I was then able to make quick alliances with both, but I won't expect either to go all the way to the end, because that kind of commitment this early in the game is too unstable.

The only other person I have talked to is Stephen, who just "wanted to get to know me" and didn't want to make an alliance. Tbh, I think he's trying to feel me out to see what kind of personality I have and will then form an alliance based on that. I think he's doing the same with everyone else as well, so I don't trust him as far as I can throw him.
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Then, we start the actual episode off with an immunity challenge, which I found very disheartening, because almost every single person came to do it, showing that this will be a very active season from the start and that I have a lot of shit to wade through to get to the end. Anyways, we ended up winning, so...yay, :)

As of right now, I'm not doing much otherwise, but I'm hoping that our tribe makes a majority alliance (in which I'm included) to help me when we get to merge, :P

A lot of things have changed since the last time I did the last confessional. I have more allies, more suspicions, and a loss of words at how many more people they had than us last night. With that said, let's start by talking about the challenge.

So, for the challenge, I had a strategy for winning and I thought it was fool-proof. It was to simply assign everyone on my tribe a different buoy and we would all dive down for them no matter how many points they were worth, so we didn't waste time by checking and then typing. However, I did not account for the fact that if the other tribe had more people, they would be more likely to win and our plan fell through immediately, causing us to lose.

After the challenge, we all went back to camp and I immediately talked with Jamie, Stephen, and Mearl separately. In doing so, I think I earned more trust from them all and I learned a bit more about how I feel they're going to play the game. Stephen told me how he went to everyone on the tribe individually and that he was rechecking everything I told him to make sure I wasn't lying. To me, that is suspicious af, but I think in the merge section of the game, he'd be a great shield to put in front of me, so I don't get shot. Then there's Jamie who isn't...the best at deceiving, if you know what I mean. He took forever to respond to me (meaning he was definitely talking with others) and was saying everything that Stephen was, which I took as him being Stephen's back-up source for information, but I get the feeling he wouldn't be afraid to backstab him to further himself. Lastly, there was Mearl, who put himself the furthest away from me as possible, which rubs me the wrong way. I don't know what it is, but something unnerves me about him and I have a feeling he's just laying low for right now and will emerge at the merge with excellent gameplay behind the scenes. I also think that he doesn't trust Stephen (which could be good and bad), because he was very suspicious of why he didn't want an alliance chat (Stephen said it would cause "too much trouble").

Unfortunately, Aria was not there to be involved in any of this, so she had to catch up afterwards. I haven't told her about the huge alliance being formed (Mearl, James, Jamie, Joe, Stephen, and I), but I think she knows, because she lied straight to my face about not talking to anyone else (even though Stephen has talked with everyone on the tribe), which I find elusive af. However, she did tell me that she thinks Millie and Stephen will be a duo in the game and that Mearl will clash with them at some point, which means she still trusts me, even if it's just a little.

With all of that being said, there really wasn't anyone to get rid of other than Jordan, so it won't be a surprise as to whom I vote, ;)

Vote: {Jordan

*puts hands on face*
I can't believe this...
*takes hands off*

This game has taken a turn for the worse for me, :(
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So, let's start with the challenge:

As I said in an earlier message, I loved this game from elementary school and I would do it at least once a month or so. That's why I was pretty confident I could get at least the best time on my tribe and I stopped after I realized that it would be hard af. I am surprised that Mearl also had the same time, but hey, I still have this necklace on my neck, :)
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After we came back from the challenge, I went to the same people I did last time: Mearl, Stephen, Jamie, and Aria. Mearl didn't respond at all for whatever reason, so that was the first sign that my game was going downhill. Then, I accidentally told Stephen that I thought either Millie or Stephen should go and he took that as I want him out even though I explained that I meant Marshall and his name is right above Marshall's. #HonestMistake

Then, with Aria, she told me that her name was being thrown around and I did not like that, because she is one of my closest allies. Afterwards, I went to Jamie and Stephen to see what they would say and both said that she was indeed being voted out and that Joe is going next time.

Now, this is what I hate about this game. If I vote with Aria, then I'm probably going to be targeted by everyone, but if I vote against her, then she's going to be SO mad (which I really don't want) and she'll call me out as a snake or something.

Even though I absolutely HATE doing this and I really wish there were an alternative, there isn't going to be this early in the game. That's why I am sad to say:

My vote is for: {Aria}

I think I'm in the clear...maybe...

First off, shout out to Aria for this message (read from bottom to top):
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Aria: Lol I'm not surprised. Do what you need to do though. It's my last group game so I'm hoping it's not me but if it is oh well lol
Me: Yeah, I've heard it's either you or Joe, 0_0
Aria: I think Joe is the vote

I feel SO bad for doing this, but if I had the chance to save her, I would have, :(
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Now, with that being said, I didn't go to the last challenge, just because I knew there would be drama and tbh, the last thing I need right now is to be in the middle of the crossfire. Sadly, we lost, but I think that's just because they were waiting for us to show them the answers. It's a strategy...of sorts, but I didn't think it was respectable.

After the challenge, I decided to wait about 20 mins or so, so people actually thought I was gone during the challenge, but I could still talk to people fairly early. I talked to the same three people (Mearl, Stephen, and Jamie) and yet again, they all told me the same person to vote against and atm, I'm starting to think that I'm a 4th wheel to them or something. If we can win the next immunity challenge, I may start talking to the ones I haven't talked with yet to start seeing their view points on the game and so that I don't seem so distant from them come merge. Also, I want to bring up this quote that I use in a lot of Survivors to explain how I feel:
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First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.
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In my opinion, this describes our tribe perfectly. Every time we go to TC, we have a unified vote, because none of us cares who goes as long as it's not us. As soon as it is us, we can't do anything about it and we're sent packing. I'm not saying I want a revolution at the next TC, but I do think that some cracks will need to form in order for me to survive later on. Hopefully it works out in the end, but who knows? Even I could be voted out 7-1, as explained at TC.

With that being said, I vote for: {Joe}

Now, why did you have to go and do that for, huh? Although, this may just help me...

So, obviously, I was shocked to see that we had a tribe swap and even more so when we found out it was a double Tribal Council. Now, on the other side, we have 3 former Juggernauts against 5 Warriors while on this side, we have 4 Juggernauts and 4 Warriors. This may suggest that we are in the worst position possible and that would be exactly right. The other side is pretty much doomed, since it's doubtful anyone would want to get in the crossfire of James and Torsa. On our side, however, we have an idol (which Mearl has) and we have a chance of beating the other side. However, if it gets into a tie, we're dead, because it would be a 2-1 chance of one of us going (counting out immunities, idols, and those in the vote). That's why I want to be the one voted for. I know it sounds absurdly stupid, but for some reason, I trust the Juggernauts enough to not flip, so why not?

Anyways, with that all said, I vote for: {Megan}

Sorry for not doing one of these in a while, being on R.I. is pretty boring, :/

Anyways, I'm back! Yay! I can't believe I did so well in the challenge, but I really thought I was going to be out if I didn't get to lvl 40 (the last level in the game). Now the real challenge will be the actual game, 0_0

So, when I was voted off, I was pretty upset, considering I hadn't even thought about the fact that our tribe would be in the fate of luck at the tie breaker, but I honestly don't blame them, even though I doubt I would've done what they did.

At this point, I don't think there's too big of a shot at me winning this game. The fact that there were cliques before the season even began is what's going to hurt me in the end, because it'll be impossible to break them. However, there is someone that I honestly do trust, but he is a huge threat as well...

That person's name is Mearl. I'm pretty sure Mearl was the only one to save me at the last Tribal Council, and I haven't heard different, so I assume that is the case. Even though he's the only one telling me the truth, I have to understand that he plays very well. Mearl has played this game so many times that he knows that if you give sympathy to others, they will trust you and will be easy blindsides down the road, especially with my case.

Everyone is else is being fake AF, unfortunately, and I think we're going to be blindsided in this vote by an idol, but as long as the target isn't me, I'm fine with the Juggernauts taking a hit. If we're not hit with an idol, then our target goes and happily ever after! :)

With that said, my vote is for: {Mearl}

This entire game has turned upside down, tbh.

So to start off, I'm sorry about challenge. I didn't see the time limit in which we had to do it, so I missed the deadline, but I doubt I would've won anyways.

After the challenge, things went hectic. Mearl was the first one to come to me and he created a group of 4 (himself, Cory, Rhys, and myself), telling us that he didn't want to be in a group where he's obvs 5th (Jamie, Marshall, Stephen, Ben, and himself). Therefore, he wanted the four of us to team up with Millie or someone to blindside them.

Then, Cory came to me (I just realized he was my frat mate a few days ago, tbh) and said that he didn't think the situation was entirely truthful and that he didn't trust Mearl. I also believe this, but I think Mearl is a very good person to have in this game, because he is a huge target. Now, this doesn't mean I plan on taking him far into the game, it just means I like to have the shield for a while.

With all of that said, I should probably explain my game plan, tbh. Now, before, I was just taking it day by day, but now I've caught wind that I am the one on the chopping block, so I'm going to have to start to play now. The only person I trust at this point is Cory, but the ones that I think are the biggest threats are Mearl, Stephen, James, and, unfortunately, Cory. I'm unsure about some of them like Rhys, Marshall, and Millie, but my guess about Jamie is that he is a puppet. I can tell he's running off and telling his group everything I say, so I'm going to start telling him some bs info to throw his group in disarray. I think I'm in a safe spot, because of Mearl's idol, but who knows? I could be getting lied to by everyone, :(

This day has been really chill, tbh. The 4 of us (Rhys, Mearl, Cory, and I) have gotten together again to vote off someone else. I don't think anything major will happen, but idk, tbh.

Anyways, my vote is for: {Millie}