They always say "You get what you put into it" And in some cases sure, that's true, on this site its not. I play these games on the site which is mainly why I'm still here and they used to be a stress reliever from the outside world, that's gone away.
I'm relatively nice to people unless they someone wrong me or lie to me which is understandable. This year it'll be my seventh I believe. But the sites going downhill. All my favorite group game hosts have left, all the people that were fun to play with left, I can't check the games page without seeing porn, and I can't check the blogs page without someone spoiling something. (I do NOT want to be spoiled for 40) But I've always felt like im on the outside looking in. Same could be said for the real life but whatever.
I haven't always done the right things I've cheated, I've used derogatory words, I've told people to "kys". But I don't believe its all my fault, I joined when I was 12, now I'm 17.
But for all these terrible things I have done I apologize.
Every week or so something bad seems to happen in a game and I take it too seriously and then it creates a ripple effect of multiple bad things happening. Which then leads to me having to vent my problems out to someone else, which isn't fair to them for having to listen. With this happening more frequently I'm finally starting to see how toxic and taxing it is on me.
So when my time comes and I get put up for 16th in about 8 hours and go home in about twenty. I'm going to bounce, I'll probably give someone my account or something just because I don't want it to get hacked and go to someone I don't like.
(Dont even know why I joined stars)
