i woke up just hanging on it was another night that just went wrong that seems 2 be the trend these days i am throwing up and i am getting older hoping that i will see the light one one and then every thing would just make so much more senescence 2 me i dont know where i am going most days i just feel lost i know these are suppose 2 be the happpyist days of my life but i barely have the energy 2 go 2 work every day but i make sum tea and carry on i wont let sadness or longing of days past bring me down some days i just got get my feet on the ground and go there will be no falling down these days. i pull a book that makes me happy i read 4 awhile. i seem 2 be geting back 2 who i once was i lay in the grass and fell all the energy around me and it wakes it makes me wanna be better she makes me wanna be better she is the reason 4 me getting back 2 normal. and this is me life now and i am so thankful 2 have breathe in my lungs and i just keep moving every day. i am glad i was able 2 come back form the darkness and now i live in the light and i love it so much more it is truly worth living 4. i am so glad that i am back.