My life will never be the same. I wanted to let you all know that I'm not dead, but I'm not doing well. Thank you all for the comments and messages. I don't know what the future holds for me or my family really. It's really ironic because my brother is the one we would have all gone to for comfort but he's gone now. It's only been like 14 hours and I don't know how to keep going on in life. We still don't have funeral arrangements made so idk when that's going to be.