Hey, I just wanted to say sorry for how I reacted it was completely uncalled for and you did not deserve that. I really do like you and think you're hilarious and every time we have good interactions it's been great but I've realised it can turn sour quickly between us and I have reflected on it and I can see the pattern and that pattern stems from me, which I am disgusted with because I don't want that to be my reputation or your opinion of me. All I can say is I am sorry and I am working to better myself. I understand this apology will never be enough and the way you feel towards me can only come from your personal feelings & I can only try to change that with my actions as they do speak louder than words.
I want to show you that I am no longer the same person I have been so negatively painted as in a public forum. I honestly don't think I have handled the situation to the best of my ability and the repercussions that come from this I whole hardheartedly stand up and will own. Some people briefly know about my substance abuse and I don't want to use this as an excuse for my behaviour, but it has really put me in a messed up head space. I do want to apologise to you for everything I have said and hope we can repair our friendship in the future.
If you never want to speak to me again, I completely understand that and will have to live with that based on my previous actions.
