Don’t seem to understand that I feel such pain and anguish about my anger. I would argue one of the primary causes of my depression is being upset with myself about what I’ve said. People act like I rationally want anyone on here to die or for that matter be in any sort of pain or trouble. Of course I don’t.
I care about you, all of you. This is a community I’m glad to still be a part of, and partly because of that it stings when I’m excluded, when I’m people’s lowest priority, and it extends to real life too. Every time I’m ghosted irl it stings so much, because I do care.
Some people are more emotionally sensitive than others, and that applies in both ways. At times I get really excited about small things, and at the same time I feel so much more pain and loneliness at times. I don’t mean to invalidate anyone else going through something similar, I’m just trying to point out one of many things that can lead me to extreme emotion including extreme anger if I’m not careful / I fall behind on meds.
Anyways, thank you to anyone who read this I appreciate it and I hope you’re having a good night 🌙
