i've been saying to myself well whenever i want to blog i will come here and do so
but it so happens that in the last few days i've never wanted to. the only part of tengaged that amused me for 10 years (the blogs page) is not even enjoyable anymore
i've been reluctant about it - because how can you leave such a massive trait of yours, that you kept for so long, and even confided in the people you know the most irl like it's a little shameful secret, and you two laugh about how stupid it is?
but ultimately i think it's time to move on... even if i log in here and there, the desire isn't here anymore. and honestly, i'm glad. i've never lived a happier life before. i never knew life could be so bold and beautiful before.
on here, though, i've became one of those robots that people will dm: PLEASE SAVE ME IN STARS!!!! I'M ABOUT TO KILL MYSELF IRL!!!! and so i will do out of pure genuine love for them, who have got my back for all these years.
i changed my friendslist to match my real soul and not what 'i want people to think of this profile'. it's been changing throughout the last couple 48 hours though. it still might still change as i revive the memoirs of whom i met on this site.
this isn't my final blog though, i will do one in appreciation of all my friends. very soon.
because really. i'm so glad i was a part of this. it's nothing to be ashamed for. where else would i connect with so many different, but also particularly close to me, people around the globe.
love you (at least most of you. some of you still suck)
with a strawberry in the mouth 🫦