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ShayyBayy

Hello, my name is proj. c 101

why you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside

do you miss me like I miss you?
fucked around and got attached to you,
friends can break your heart too,
and i'm always tired but never with you

I got these feelings but you nevermind that shit

you ever wonder what we could have been?
you said you wouldnt and you fucking did
lie to me, lie with me, get your fuckin fix
now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fuckin mixed

There are so many things you say that make me feel you cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I am counting down the time
'Cause I've had so many standoffs with you it's about as much as I could stand
So Im waiting until the upper hand is mine

you dont care, you never did
you dont give a damn about me
how is it you never notice
that you are slowly killing me


There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you well I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I've held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you've said about me when I'm not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I've had too many standoffs with you it's about as much as I could stand
So I wait till the upper hand is mine


I shouldn’t have to try so hard just to see a smile
Water so deep I’m about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Right now

I been dealing with depression
I’m guessing that’s a big confession
Cus bitches don’t show emotions
They hide and rather suppress em
I been lacking aggression and passion, lacking a motive
I been down in the dumps, I’m trumped, not able to focus

Ok I’m thinking and analyzing
Stressing what’s unnecessary
I should know better, cus pain is only temporary
I’m trynna be legendary, touch paper like secretaries
Happiness the motive now everything is secondary
Sinking and I’m drowning
When I overcome a hill I walk into a mountain
My eyes drop water like a fountain
I took so many L’s but who’s counting
To calculate my L’s I might need an accountant
I’m overwhelmed with emotion sinking in the ocean
Can’t float or swim, would I shine again?
Can’t rise or win, would I shine again?
I feel like I will never ever shine again

[Chorus: Evan Michael Green]
I shouldn’t have to try so hard just to see a smile
Water so deep I’m about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Right now

[Verse Two: Young L3x]
Never sipping champagne cus it’s hard to celebrate

I try to run from my demons but they chase
I’m hardly staying above water as I’m gasping for air
In a puddle of tears and the feeling that nobody cares
Why is it so hard to crack a smile or feel some joy?
Put your ear to my heart; tell me do you hear noise?
Cus it’s hard to breathe right now are my lungs collapsing
Feel like my soul is dying, hurry go get a casket
This pain I deal with I try but I can’t mask it
So let a mortician dress me who loves fly fashion
I can’t fight the devil he won’t stop harassing
I can’t fight the devil he won’t stop attacking
I’m not lying, I’m dying yea my time is passing
If you ever saw me smiling well I was acting
Yea I know I’m cracking and the devils laughing
And all I see is water now like I’m fasting
I’m drowning

Check my blog: http://www.tengaged.com/blog/ShayyBayy/138090/some-you-know-this-some-you-dont-tm

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  9. I just had to call the cops
  10. it really does suck16th
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  12. day 2 of school
  13. unemployment office
  14. aight imma head out
  15. some of yall, man
  16. remember when
  17. and i've been thinking
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