== PART ONE ==
Hi, jury! I first want to thank Mike and Newz for inviting me back for a third (and probably final) time to play this game, and to right any wrongs from Saipan and Greece. Regardless of tonight’s outcome, I am proud of the game I played, just as much as David and Kara, so I respect whatever happens.
Trying to find a place to start my jury speech is difficult because I don’t want to sound gamebot af nor gay af, so I guess the first thing that comes to mind is the fact that I was revealed last. At the cast reveal, I was the last person revealed. When I asked the hosts a couple weeks back if that was because I was the last person chosen or a replacement, I was surprised by their response:
Because they wanted to instill fear. It’s no secret that I have an infamous reputation in this community. And that’s why my game focused on fighting that narrative to be a hero, yet embracing the pure villandry within me.
Being put on the pure villains tribe was no surprise. However, the only people I really clicked with were Jabbar and Ryan B. Rhett was delusional in our seasons, Andrea screwed over the entire tribe, Dan was practically invisible, and Kelly just doesn’t like me. So, I found it difficult to build strength with my original tribe considering there was a lot of drama that centered around everyone on my tribe--but me. I knew I had to branch out my connections because I could only go so far with Jabbar and Ryan B., evidenced by half the cast despising Ryan B. and then Jabbar becoming a target as the merge boot for fighting David publicly. Still, the three of us (and I guess Kelly) were able to dig deep and win challenges to make a swap.
This is where my social game started to catch weight. The first alliance I made this entire game with Joey, Ken, and Will was called the Mariah Carey fan club, and it was able to stay strong up until I voted Ethan out. We communicated pretty much every round, despite the fact that I was never on a tribe with them until the merge. I’ve known Joey and Will for years, and Ken by association, so it was an easy group to click with from day one. Aside from my connections with Jabbar and Ryan B. from the pure villains tribe, this was the main focus of my social game before the swap, because small talk with neutral villains and pure heroes from the double tribal twists only got me so far. Other people were light years ahead of me in the social game because my tribe kept losing challenges, and I was only really voting at tribal councils with them, versus 20 something other people.
The swap really opened my social game outside the pure villains and Joey/Ken/Will alliance. I remember seeing Patrick posting the results in the main Skype chat and feeling defeated, because it was clear that Kelly and I were on the bottom. That night, I put into work arguably the MOST important part of the game for me. I knew that the only way I had a chance at staying in the game was to throw Kelly under the bus. My conversations with David, Kara, Patrick, Ruben, and Qaz were clear that it was one of us two on the chopping block. Kelly scrambled really fast to flip that vote on Patrick, but it was through my persuasion that I was able to convince the tribe to vote Kelly out instead. I learned a couple days later that Patrick and Qaz were going to throw their votes on me in case Kelly played an idol, but Patrick forgot to switch his vote, making Qaz the only vote against me. After that, the only other time I received votes was when Dylan and Joey voted for me at the final 6. 3 votes against me the entire game. This just furthers how successful I was at persuading Masoala to not vote me out of the tribe, and moving forward with their trust for voting out Kelly. This also reveals how, even with the reputation I faced day 1, I was able to make it to day 39 without more than three votes against me, which is impressive considering we are on a season of so many competitors, and I was playing a very public game.
Remerging into the villains tribe was annoying because I had only really bonded with David, Patrick, and Qaz from the Masoala swap, while Jabbar and Ryan B. were growing apart even after the work I put in on pure villains. Jabbar wound up voting with Dylan/Julian/LQ/Mud against Ryan B. after I leaked the plan to vote Patrick. This was the first time in the game that I realized I was seen as a leaker, and I needed to rethink what I told people, because Ryan B. leaving the game was predominantly my fault. I made it up to that group by voting out Patrick at the next vote because I saw no feasible way for me to move forward with him, while I knew David and Qaz could find a way out. This was just another vote, like Kelly’s, where I did what was necessary to rebuild trust with people, since I was constantly perceived as a paranoid leaker, when in reality I was calculated to rebuild some ounce of trust with Dylan/Julian/LQ/Mud, even though I secretly wanted Mud out of the game because I knew he was the glue behind a huge alliance.
That’s why I was able to secure individual immunity by a vote from the heroes, as the majority of them gave me immunity. This also shows how I played a good social game because I was able to convince the majority of the heroes that I was in danger and needed the necklace. My day 1 alliance with Joey/Ken/Will payed off, as well as my time with Kara/Ruben on Masoala, giving me the opportunity to take a shot at Mud. The plan was set in motion, but David turned his vote, proving himself to be a flipper. Jabbar/LQ were pissed, and I guess them publicly fighting David helped my game because it made them the merge targets over me. Props to y’all.