Hey jury! This is my second season of cutthroat survivor, and i'm so happy that I made it this far.
My first season of cutthroat survivor happened to be season 12, Cutthroat: Providenciales. That season was a lot of stress for being such a shitty season. I worked my ass every single day to make sure that my name would never come up. I made a lot of big moves and I strategized on the daily. Even though the season never had any awards after, I was told by far I played the best game of the season. From what I learned from that season was that I never kept bigger threats around. By taking out all the stronger competitors, I made myself look like the biggest target going into final 5. If I had not won the Final 5 immunity there was a good chance I was going home. I thought that would've been my biggest mistake from that season, getting rid of all the big threats.
Starting out this season, I applied last minute. I had to pick a partner fast, so I went to my frat. I messaged a couple of people and Pat was the person that I chose. I chose Pat because he seemed like he was a level-headed player and could hold his own. He also seemed very loyal. Playing this season, I wanted to make sure that we were on the same page but never really strategize in the same group of people. We wanted to keep our options open. I think we did just that.
To begin this season, I was on the vets tribe with James, Sagar, Livingston, Drew, and Logan. Previously playing with Logan in another game, I figured I could trust him. We needed to find a third, so we felt people out and felt the best about Livingston. I also kept my options open because I talked to Sagar and James. I had also played another game with James, and I really screwed him over. I was playing the middle in my tribe, and it came to a decision that it was either Livingston or Drew. The choice was pretty clear by everyone, by a vote of 5-1 Drew went home. Just to confirm, I was the one that got the highest score in the typing challenge, sorry for lying to everybody please forgive me. <3. Because of my typing score, we won immunity. It felt really good that we won immunity and it caused a lot of speculation about who had the high score, I kept it a secret because I did not want to be seen as a big threat. After an easy day of not having to make any decisions, we lost the next immunity and had to go back to tribal council. Up until an hour before tribal council, I thought I was doing well maneuvering my way between both sides. I thought I was going to have to make a decision between Logan and Sagar going home. I was leaning more toward Logan going home because we would be seen as a tight pair, previously making finals in another game together. As I said, an hour before tribal council things flipped, James and Sagar decided they wanted to vote me. I had to change my vote from Logan to Sagar, because girl didn't want to go home.
MERGE!
I was so happy that I made the merge after that stressful as fuck tribal council. Going into the merge I wanted to lay low but also make the moves while not being seen as the one making the moves. Going into the first tribal council, I didn't think I was the biggest threat going into merge. I knew my name would be tossed around but I never assumed I would leave that early. After James had previously written my name down, a lot of people wanted to vote him, so I really didn't have a problem with it. Something hit Logan and I about an hour before tribal council. We decided to flip the vote to Grace since neither of us really associated with her due to lack of communication. Due to James talking to us, we saved him from the vote.
The next vote was Alex, another vote that I flipped last second. With everybody messaging everybody and the high paranoia, and with the fact that I promised James I wouldn't write AJ's name down, I decided to play the safe decision and vote off Alex, also due to the lack of communication. This next vote was a little difficult, I really like James and thought that we were having good conversations. I was always giving him benefit of the doubt, but I wanted to keep my options open. Originally Logan and I wanted to take the opportunity to blindside somebody and spare James once again. We wanted to take out Jimmy for laying under the radar. After Pat leaking information to the wrong person, everybody got paranoid and decided to back out of the blindside and just vote James, I was heavily disappointed. I told James on his way out that he was the mortar of the next couple votes for the season. I hope we can be friends after. <3
Oh Logan, Oh Logan. You know how close we are and I'm sorry for what I did. BUT in order for one of us to make it deep in the game, one of us had to go and you know that. After making a lot of the decisions together, I didn't want to go to the end with you having the same resume. You guys wanted to vote off AJ and I really liked AJ. With the rumors of X having an idol, Lilly and I came to the agreement that you were the safest option, incase of an idol play. <3 Cries, I love you! So you asked me right before the vote if it was going to be you, so I left the call because I couldn't hear the sadness of your voice because I really do care about you. You ended up texting me and asking me if it was you and I responded with, "Yes.". I knew you were really sad, but it was the best decision for my game. I think at the end of the day you know it was. I don't know why people called you a sheep, you're iconic! <3.
The next vote off was the second half of the double. A lot of us had come to the agreement that if we made the big move, we would need to take out somebody from the X alliance, and blindside Jimmy. Since he had never received a vote the entire season, nobody really saw it coming besides the people that voted for him. Jimmy was the decision due to his past experience of winning lots of competitions.
LILLY before I say anything else, I just want you to know I love you and hope we can be friends after. We were on the phone call and it was supposed to be AJ due to his ability to win the jury vote. And then Livingston came into the call ten minutes before the vote wanting to vote Sam. We all came to the agreement of "sure why not?". I thought to myself for a second, and in the span of 7 minutes and went to X because of his idol. I wanted the idol flushed. I told him the vote was on Sam and that we should vote Lilly because Lilly was an amazing player, it needed to be a big move. I didn't end up voting out Lilly, instead I told X who told Sam. I don't know how the third vote came about because it wasn't me.
The next vote was AJ. My pot smoking friend, we had our ups and downs this game. With everything being leaked around us it seemed that we would never make it to the end together because we knew how big of a threat the other one was. I did end up giving you the benefit of the doubt multiple times and heard you out, even though you threw my name out, and i'm not gonna lie, I threw yours out too. Please take it as a compliment, you were a really big threat. Although, you probably don't understand why because you were on the outs, you would've 100% won this game if you made it to the end.
The next vote was X. *HEAVILY SIGHS* X, I lost my trust in you the second you went around telling people that you wanted me out. Regardless how you feel now because you were voted out, I was going to take you to the end until that sketchy ass phone call with everybody but Pat and I. It also didn't help that you were telling people all game stuff I was saying about them in private. I had full trust in you, and you broke it. Don't try to bullshit me, you know that it's true. I'm probably not getting your vote, but you are the one that fucked over this final 2 by not having trust in me. Your paranoia go the best of you.
Sam, to be honest we didn't really talk until final 6. When you invited Pat and I to a chat after you had just gotten off a phone call. You told us you wanted out X. I did not believe it for a second, it seemed WAY too sketch after you had just gotten off the phone with him. The only person in that phone call that told me the truth about that phone call, was Livingston. I couldn't vote him out.
Livingston without you being in this game in the beginning and the end, screw the middle, we never turned our backs on each other. Look where that brought us. I wish you the best of luck. <3 I can't wait to be friends outside of this game.
Pat, what can I say? We barely talked but we didn't turn our back on each other because we knew in the end that it would be beneficial for us to keep each other until the end. Good luck and thank you for being a great partner. <3
This season was a lot more stressful than my previous season. Without getting a single vote against me in the merge, I am the only player to do so. I received 2 votes the entire season. It's because I had a strong social game with the people that I was working with. I kept good relations with people on the outs so I had options to make the moves that I did. I played really hard, and at the end of the day I won 3 individual immunity challenges at the end. Was I dishonest in this game? Yes. Did I backstab people? Yes. Did I lie? Yes. Did I make the right decisions at the end of each day? Maybe, but it got me to where I am at.
After a really long season, I am very humble that I got to play the game with each of you. Without you guys here this season would've made my experience much different. This season definitely took a toll on me. I was stressed out to the point where I was not eating. I truly felt this was the closest to survivor without actually being on the island. I hope to receive your votes and I would be honored to be the winner of Cutthroat Survivor: Blood vs. Water II.