*clears throat*
Thank you everyone for coming to the house meeting. I gathered everyone so I could use my Hidden Immunity Idol and force James to name another replacement nominee.
Just kidding!
This game... Has not been very fun. I'm not gonna lie. I haven't been able to dedicate myself to this game competitively or socially. The challenge competition times are AWFUL for me because of my work schedule and my social life, and I haven't been able to give 100% in everything and that frustrates the shit out of me. I just also haven't really had the time to sit down and make genuine bonds with people (except for one but I won't name them b/c it could hurt their game), and with several international players I just can't get times to line up to have a decent conversation with any of the UK peeps.
It had been over two years since I last competed in a Suitman game. I think Shawn is a great host who puts in a lot of effort into his games, and I know he has been trying for a VERY long time to get me to come back. But unfortunately the hesitations I had about coming back - not being available for challenges, having my irl social life suddenly picking up, not certain if I'm in the best mindset/mental health for intense group games.
Today's events made me realize that I am not right for this specific competition. I'm not in the best place to give it my all, competiviely and socially. I paused hangouts with friends so I could get to my computer/phone for comps, which is silly, and today I got super anxious at my job as all of today's events went down. These games come with anxiety and I know that, but to my the anxiety was not worth the game. I'm not invested into this game enough to be okay with dealing with anxiety at my job for a group game.