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This is the only blog that matters now

Apr 10, 2019 by zakisaboss
This is the only blog that matters now.

I was hesitant about doing this blog because I really don’t like to hurt people, even if they do me wrong but sometime you just get pushed too far and I need to clear my mind and give my story because it seems there’s a lot of stories and none to justice to my experience.

Now please bear in mind, I’m not asking anyone to hate anyone or turn on anyone or anything like that, this is just a statement/warning about the dangers and pitfalls that can exist in an environment like this and I would hate to think others could experience this from any users.

In December I met Franky properly when I messaged him to discuss some feelings I had for a mutual friend, who I will not name and drag them back into this, simply because I still adore them and it wouldn’t be fair. Franky offered me support and advice about how to approach my feelings and what to say to the person. Little did I know he was acting as a bit of a go between bad-mouthing both of us to each other (don’t deny it, I’ve seen it). He called me desperate and played both sides so well it drove a wedge between me and the other person, in fact, Franky threw them to one side completely- I see now, because I had become the “replacement” side chick to “daddy” and Tracey’s games. He later told me, he did this because he wanted me for himself and it was for selfish gain. Sure Jan. He continued to be there for me as a friend through some difficult times and stuff I was finding hard to manage around Christmas time. Meanwhile he was apparently on call with Tracey calling me fat, desperate and a mess that was easy to manipulate as long as I “didn’t catch feelings” (again seen the texts).
https://imgur.com/a/PwKoZXR
He denies this and says any negative comments made about me were so Tracey didn’t think he was getting feelings for me, which he was…allegedly.

In January, Franky was feeling really low and alluded to feeling suicidal and went off the site for 3-4 days over the long weekend, suggesting to me he had some pills and had left his dog with his aunt. Again, according to Tracey (see a pattern yet), that was a lie and he was doing it for the fun… “to laugh as people”. It wasn’t funny. Myself, Rob, Joe, Holly and Gagaluv were worried sick, all trying his cell, his skype, local police services and Tracey happily let us do all this.  Franky of course says this isn’t true and Tracey’s comments were said out of anger so he forgives her (such a light hearted joke, right?).
https://imgur.com/a/U3WBgWJ
Just after this time is when we grew a little closer, we spoke daily, sometimes out of concern and sometimes just because we liked chatting, so I thought. At the start of Feb, Franky told me that he was feeling some type of way and I confessed that I did too and might be interested in seeing what’s up. Of course, the backlash I got from this at first was abuse from Tracey. She didn’t want to share him…because im “pathetic, whiny, and fat” and he’s going to hurt me (? I wonder how she knows). After a million times being called into chatzys where, yep Tracey, would call him a catfish and show us all his different sets of pictures, his different phone numbers, his text messages, his emails, saying that he’s emotionally manipulative and can’t be trusted. I resisted this as I believed in him and I really did.

And then…the very first day we said let’s see where this can go…I found out he had also professed something similar feelings wise to Joe. He told Joe he wasn’t ready for a relationship yet but maybe one day but he did love him (proof obtained); of course he didn’t tell Joe and me and him, cos why kill one of your options, eh Franky!? Also on the same day, he sent nudes to other people...in a game…that we were both in. Imagine, someone who sends pictures so easily to everyone who asks…must have some confidence. Well apparently not, because he doesn’t want to go on cam or take any new pics, they’re all from the archive. His reason; “im scared”. Ok sis. After a couple of months, I asked him again why be scared when you say you love me? *insert vague answer here* “I will get there…you know I love and adore you, right?”. When did he plan of me seeing his face? When we meet IRL…do I look that stupid? Again, according to Tracey I was weaker than Joe, that’s why he picked me. Interesting. Do I sound weak with this blog yet?

We did speak on the phone, basically every day or night and it was always fun, sometimes it was sweet, never sexual for the record…he saves his sexting for Tracey, again he denied this (but again, I’ve seen the proof- Nancy drew could never). He would stop me putting myself down, being too hard on myself, going off on people…that kinda thing. It was lovely for a while. And then…I was shown his FB page, which according too… *drum roll* Tracey, he created as a fake account to try and fool us all (back in 2011, huh?). He would tell me I was sexy/ handsome when I sent selfies or whatever, it was really a prompt for a similar response but no. One day he told he had told his mum about me and she wanted to speak to me because he was serious about me…right. Anyway, after his social media was uncovered he vanished for 2 weeks because “I deserved better, someone who would be honest with me”- well he came back, and still wasn’t honest so BOOP. Once he was back I was told “you’re my only link to TG now” and he went offline for a week or two at a time, only logging back in to buy me gifts I said I didn’t want, or the offering of real money- you can’t buy people dude. Nice gift blog btw. And looks who’s super active now I’m out of the picture, trying to block people off and keep himself sweet on the site.

Every time I tried to raise something with him, it was the standard gaslight “don’t you trust me Nicky”, “Just have a little faith”, “I know I’m impossible but…”. It was always about me having to compromise and just accept things as they were. Even when I was super open about my past emotionally abusive relationship, his responses were the same, it made me feel small and powerless and he clearly fucking loved it. There was always a trauma or a tantrum or a threat of ghosting, i was totally invalidated dehumanised but i believed he loved me. Eventually I threw out a wild idea of meeting in April for Easter- “I will make it work if that’s what you want”…suddenly, he’s sick…ghosting me for 30 hours at a time; tweeting, blogging but unable to communicate. “I’m sick, I’m in bed, I have no energy to send you one text in 30 hours” kinda thing. It was very much about making me feel bad for trying to check in with him and being concerned. The funny thing is, the last person he said we could go on cam with, he stopped speaking to after. It’s deffo not normal behaviour. Oh yes, during this time he had A COLD, I told him some big news for me, something I was scared of, he was so concerned, he was back with Tracey before I even knew what it was for sure.

Remember, who kicked off the catfish thing, the downhill turn that this took, who’s provoked me and made up stuff (or not!?) all the way through? Yep…Tracey. The same woman who calls him daddy and he stands beside like she’s an angel. Why would you protect someone that causes someone so much pain, especially if you cared about them? Also…to joke about fake suicide? She’s low and he’s happy to be on her level but I will not be dragged down or dragged into this anymore. I’ve been dragged across blogs and had it rubbed in my face because I dare to tell the truth. Yes we’ve all read the blog about her sending underage boys nudes, and yes Franky defends this, for that alone, I will never forgive. The internet is a dangerous place already. She also ask for dick pics from whileimhere (I have him on skype for evidence mods).

Things we’ve been told include- telling someone he had hepatitis (denied to everyone else- despite screenshots), that’s he’s 21 (not true, confirmed), that his bf took his virginity, cheated on him and went to prison (Tracey told him I said this, when I came from basketofkisses which clearly belongs to one of them. We have, between the people involved in this blog, seen 3 different men from 3 different sets of images, one of which traced back to New Mexico (guess who said this was a deliberate stunt- a clue? T…), have all been showered with gifts and made promises that are never kept and we’re always to blame? Yeah ok, gaslighter, good job. lruthskelt is my real life best friend and she fucking hated you and I still stood up for you. I broke up with a REAL boyfriend for you, I told you that just before you ghosted me too. The emotional abuse is real.

During all of this, I was abused, bullied, treated like shit across the site- in my PMs, chatzys, videos of me being shared and laughed at just because of who I chose to like- and I really did have feelings for him. But that’s ok, my heart will fix, better than being filled by a manipulative shrew. No attempt made from him to stop her, to help me, to intervene. I withstood all the bollocks on our behalf, probably why he really stayed off TG. I stood our ground then and I’m standing mine now. Oh and, the very first friend, the one I wouldn’t name, was also bullied…by Franky, on skype, I have that evidence too. Nice guys who are always nice are gripping that mask so tight, just be careful. Every time he said something nice to me, he said something just as nasty about me to someone else. Even the other day, I got a message from Tracey saying he asked me to leave those 2 alone...no love, he messaged saying he'll always have love for me and we could continue talking away from TG...sounds familiar that does it Tracey!? All on the DL.

Oh Franky, in case you’re unclear, Tracey was the one who mentioned your brother, your mother, your grandma, your job, dug the past with Alvin, Nyah etc and the one who started every single chatzy and hate campaign and im sorry boo, she made the holycannoli email, no one else had my email address, fact. She also called you ugly, unstable, not much of a man (proof? I have it…). OH, and the nudes you deny her sending to underage boys? Several witnesses…I may even be in contact with Tyler myself…so think about your next steps very carefully. In fact, the only person to defend you the ENTIRE time, was me. But that’s ok, you forgive her, he husband knows all about you so obviously you’ll live happily ever after in your celibate, cross-country love affair, you know being gay and everything. I really wished you had seen more sense in where the toxic and the hate all came from so all I can do is wish you the best of luck surviving her mania (and probably your own). If you’re not a catfish, you’re at least emotional abusive and manipulative, just like her, which is why you forgive each other- she says herself, “it’s a tango”. Dance yourself to more pain Franky and more lies. Stop trying to get Holly permed because she knows too much, thanks.

Comments

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bitch i lit thought u were getting sentimental for a second
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tl;dr
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