Jan 8, 2018
- Ten years ago I fell in love with you, I wish I knew how bad it was going to turn out...
Facebook was new, we were falling, and I had a new best friend who I could fool around with...
But, I did that thing I like to do where I make everything weird and uncomfortable and ruin EVERYTHING
Our constant messages became weekly, monthly, then just my messages.
And did I get a hint?
I kept sending you message after message.
No Reply, hint given...
No hint taken.
I cried and whined and asked God why...
I was an idiot.
But years faded, and when I encountered you in public, eyes rolled amd you looked away.
Tore my heart from my chest.
Pretended it didn't happen.
Lied about our sex life to make me feel better
Piece of absolute shit I was...
Then I met another. I had the most beautiful red head in the world.
I did it again, however this one is still my friend because I did learn a little...
I miss my friend, I still can't sleep some nights; thinking about what could have been if I just picked up the simplest of hints.
I see your Facebook, I no longer feel in love, but something is nagging at me...
I wish I could tell you how proud I am for you, how I love that you found love, and how happy I am to see you happy.
And how I just wish I had my friend back
But I can't, and I can't even apologize
I fucked up, and will live with that forever
I promised to love you forever.
I didn't lie about that
Which is why I accept the consequences of my behavior.
I can see
Guys out there, it's hard to see when you're blinded by love. But you have to realize your limits. You have to keep your foot in reality. Otherwise, you might just lose the best thing you'll ever have.
Dammit Gurl ya got me all fucked up. Sorry for my behavior, I never knew my limit
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