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Accepting Reality.

1stMay 17, 2015 by sophiesanf
imageSo on the 12th of april my whole world fell apart. My boyfriend of 2 and a half years broke up with me for reasons i don't deem acceptable. He left the the Uk to live over in the UAE with the intention of me going over not long after. He made everything seem so simple and when he realised it wasn't going to be as easy and simple as he had planned..he just gave up. He started being distant with me....avoided skyping me, became neutral in texts..brushed asides my terms of affection with an 'anyway'. When i did ask him about it he said he loved me and that everything was fine..but i could tell it wasn't. I knew deep down in my heart it was anything but. This wasn't the person i'd fought my battles with. I was so sick with worry i couldn't eat, i started developing tension headaches from my emotional stress. So he eventually told me that he was finding long distance too hard and that we should break up...  Of course my heart shattered into pieces. The person i loved the most in the whole world had treated me awfully and now was breaking my heart beyond repair.
    Personally, i don't feel long distance is a good enough reason to throw away 2 and half years of pure love. If you had read my previous blogs you'd know that we overcame a miscarriage earlier this year..and in those awful moments i had never felt a stronger bond between us..i felt like we could get through anything together!! 2 weeks later he's jetted off to the UAE. Clearly i was wrong.
   Of course now he messages me everyday saying he wants to remain in my life and that he would die if he couldn't..that he still loves me. He gets mardy if i don't message him. And if that's the case what was the point of breaking up..of which he answered..it's easier. EASIER FOR HIM.
   I know i deserve so much better..but i love him so much..he was my soul mate..my best friend and from the moment we met to the moment he left it was so magical and pure..i just can't seem to let go :( Only time can heal the damage he has done..and if he really loved me he would be here with me.
    So i'm going to accept the fact that i have to move on and hopefully restore the faith i had in true love.
     Thankyou for reading.

Comments

aww im really sorry about that :( whatever happen will make you an even stronger person < 3
Sent by Oliviaxoxo,May 17, 2015
:( Hope you feel better about it soon im sorry this happened < / 3
Sent by JayElVeeIsBack,May 17, 2015
:/
Sent by useamint,May 17, 2015
aw
Sent by Ireland,May 17, 2015
i'm sorry.
Sent by SydneyWalsh,May 17, 2015
When you're in a long  distance relationship, it isn't always easy to tell what the other person is thinking feeling or thinking through messages
Me personally I've been in a long distance relationship for almost as long as you have and know exactly how you feel
But my point is that you may truly believe that he doesn't care about you anymore but it could also be not enough time spent with each other
You never really know
Sent by Toxicity,May 17, 2015
:(
Sent by JasonXtreme,May 17, 2015
wow i'm so sorry :(
Sent by skyler1822,May 17, 2015
April 12th is my birthday
Awks
Sent by Kelly0412,May 18, 2015
Aawwwww :(
Sent by Shonaynay,May 18, 2015
Sorry to hear about this but just remember this: you need to go through lows to really appreciate the highs. And while it may seem like love has treated you cruelly, your relationship with this guy has helped you figure out what love is. This guy just isn't the right guy for you to experience it with though.

But don't worry. You'll find that guy one day
Sent by MadMadMas16,May 18, 2015
This is the gayest thing I've read on this site.
Sent by MMAjunkieX,May 18, 2015
He be plowing some tail in Dubia!
Sent by MMAjunkieX,May 18, 2015
sometimes it just doesn't work out
Sent by kwiens18,May 18, 2015
I'm really sorry hun... but things will get easier even tho it doesnt fill that way rn < 3 Be strong!
Sent by Vanili,May 18, 2015
12th april is my birthday
Sent by lindb,May 18, 2015
Well, at least you don't have to move to UAE now.
Sent by Moonfelar,May 18, 2015
love is tough. im so sorry =[
Sent by Lotus,May 18, 2015
aww
Sent by QuantumLeap,May 18, 2015
ugh I'm sorry < 3 :( I've been in a somewhat similar situation and it absolutely s.u.c.k.s :(
Sent by PSULucky,May 18, 2015
Inbox me if you need to talk anytime :( x
Sent by damo1990,May 18, 2015
:( maybe the time will heal things, i wish you good luck
Sent by AronJX,May 18, 2015
if u love something throw it if it comes back its your forever and if it doesnt it wasn't meant to be
Sent by m7md26,May 18, 2015
Get over it. You're better than him, and dating him was only holding you down.
Sent by KayleighWinz,May 18, 2015
Sophie if thats you and your photo then forget about him I'll be your boyfriend ;)
Sent by zach32,May 18, 2015
well honestly u have to let it go, answer his text it will only help him and not you as u said, take distance and time for urself, if he wants to be in touch as he said he wouldnt broke up for you otherwise
Sent by Elvira,May 18, 2015
Lmao Zach32 get in line :P
Sent by sophiesanf,May 18, 2015
http://www.tengaged.com/group/5149/forum/topic/15193443

JOIN AND YOU WILL MAKE THE CAST! ILL MAKE SURE! :)
Sent by winners1,May 18, 2015
You seem very level headed and strong. Definitely time to let go, sounds like at this point he's using you for his emotional needs without considering yours. Don't text or call him back anymore. You need a real break from him. Go out into the world and enjoy your life, work on yourself and your goals. You will eventually find someone who realized you are worth everything. You do deserve better.
Sent by Octopusbubbles,May 18, 2015
This blog was very hard to read. :O
Sent by Catch_a_falling_star,May 18, 2015
This blog is stupid
Sent by Hannah_Parks,May 18, 2015

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