So on the 12th of april my whole world fell apart. My boyfriend of 2 and a half years broke up with me for reasons i don't deem acceptable. He left the the Uk to live over in the UAE with the intention of me going over not long after. He made everything seem so simple and when he realised it wasn't going to be as easy and simple as he had planned..he just gave up. He started being distant with me....avoided skyping me, became neutral in texts..brushed asides my terms of affection with an 'anyway'. When i did ask him about it he said he loved me and that everything was fine..but i could tell it wasn't. I knew deep down in my heart it was anything but. This wasn't the person i'd fought my battles with. I was so sick with worry i couldn't eat, i started developing tension headaches from my emotional stress. So he eventually told me that he was finding long distance too hard and that we should break up... Of course my heart shattered into pieces. The person i loved the most in the whole world had treated me awfully and now was breaking my heart beyond repair.
Personally, i don't feel long distance is a good enough reason to throw away 2 and half years of pure love. If you had read my previous blogs you'd know that we overcame a miscarriage earlier this year..and in those awful moments i had never felt a stronger bond between us..i felt like we could get through anything together!! 2 weeks later he's jetted off to the UAE. Clearly i was wrong.
Of course now he messages me everyday saying he wants to remain in my life and that he would die if he couldn't..that he still loves me. He gets mardy if i don't message him. And if that's the case what was the point of breaking up..of which he answered..it's easier. EASIER FOR HIM.
I know i deserve so much better..but i love him so much..he was my soul mate..my best friend and from the moment we met to the moment he left it was so magical and pure..i just can't seem to let go :( Only time can heal the damage he has done..and if he really loved me he would be here with me.
So i'm going to accept the fact that i have to move on and hopefully restore the faith i had in true love.
Thankyou for reading.
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aww im really sorry about that :( whatever happen will make you an even stronger person < 3
When you're in a long distance relationship, it isn't always easy to tell what the other person is thinking feeling or thinking through messages
Me personally I've been in a long distance relationship for almost as long as you have and know exactly how you feel
But my point is that you may truly believe that he doesn't care about you anymore but it could also be not enough time spent with each other
You never really know
Sorry to hear about this but just remember this: you need to go through lows to really appreciate the highs. And while it may seem like love has treated you cruelly, your relationship with this guy has helped you figure out what love is. This guy just isn't the right guy for you to experience it with though.
well honestly u have to let it go, answer his text it will only help him and not you as u said, take distance and time for urself, if he wants to be in touch as he said he wouldnt broke up for you otherwise
You seem very level headed and strong. Definitely time to let go, sounds like at this point he's using you for his emotional needs without considering yours. Don't text or call him back anymore. You need a real break from him. Go out into the world and enjoy your life, work on yourself and your goals. You will eventually find someone who realized you are worth everything. You do deserve better.