This is a deeply personal song that I wrote today. If you're interested in producing or singing this, please let me know. I probably should make a clean version tbh.
My life’s been shit
I’ve been through it
I don’t know why
But I want to cry
But now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
Now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
I’ve been hit
By my own dumb wit
You know I try
Looking for that light
Years ago I said “I wanna die”
But Now I’m so fucking glad... I get to live life
I’m not saying, that it was ever easy.
And I know you probably think that this song is cheesy.
I know that I would’ve, when I was in your position
Feeling like the whole world was your opposition
I remember thinking happiness was unattainable
Wished I had level head, emotionally unstable
Sometimes I worry, about who I’ll become
I hide my pain through the sounds of a bass drum
I post things online, that I don’t mean
Hypnotized by a culture that is so obscene
I like to worry about diseases that I don’t have.
My mind prevents me appreciating the life I have
Uh, And that’s a crime
Committed on the inside
And that’s why
My life’s been shit
I’ve been through it
I don’t know why
But I want to cry
But now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
Now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
I’ve been hit
By my own dumb wit
You know I try
Looking for that light
Years ago I said “I wanna die”
But Now I’m so fucking glad... I get to live life
20 years from now, I’ll look back and feel numb.
Instead of living life, look what at what I’ve become.
What I needed was some peace inside my aching soul
The longer I’m alone, The more I fall into that hole
But it comforts me, I can’t explain it, but I know
I’m inactive, but my mind always takes a toll
When I feel pain, they just say that I’m troll.
But deep inside, I have feelings that you’ll never know.
The truth shies inside, Ringing like a metronome
It won’t change, but you’re afraid of what it might behold
But when you’re old, it’ll feel like a pot of gold
You don’t enjoy life, thinking that the world is cold
Always thinking, that nobody cares for you.
but online, you find people just like you.
And that’s true
My life’s been shit
I’ve been through it
I don’t know why
But I want to cry
But now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
Now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
I’ve been hit
By my own dumb wit
You know I try
Looking for that light
Years ago I said “I wanna die”
But Now I’m so fucking glad... I get to live life
It’s hard to write a message thinking that no one will hear it
I know that you’ve been told, that it will just disappear and
Seeing other people flourish when you’ve just begun
You feel like a burden to everyone you love
They might not understand, but they mean well
Imagine how they’d feel, if they saw your living hell
I was afraid, it’s the reason I’m alive today
You have a heart, thats surrounded by toxic pain
The world might not be sunshine and rainbows
But it’s also not a graveyard to decompose
I made this song well aware that your views won’t change
Not all happiness is fake
No one is benefiting, from you feeling sad.
Won’t be easy, but you can hold my hand.
You banned your happiness, it’s trapped in a foreign land
The journey’s long, but at the end you’ll be so glad
Look at the life you have, you won’t even look back.
I spent my yesterday‘s, wishing that they never were.
When I look back, positives outweigh the blurs
Sometimes it’s like I forget what my mind preferred
Your voice is heard
My life’s been shit
I’ve been through it
I don’t know why
But I want to cry
But now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
Now I’m so fucking glad to be alive
I’ve been hit
By my own dumb wit
You know I try
Looking for that light
Years ago I said “I wanna die”
But Now I’m so fucking glad... I get to live life
