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"ANGER": an original poem

Nov 26, 2019 by noobsmoke13
I promised myself to try and leave my anger in the past tense
it feels like it has been bubbling to the surface ever since
I just don't want to follow the mental illness in my family tree
but it feels as if abandonment is following me
poverty, leading to heartache in the south
screaming, yelling, a glass jar to his mouth
the way her arguments shook that fucking house
the way people say I look like her
I wish I could rebuild myself
I wish I could put the parallels back on the shelf
I wish that I was better at asking for help
before my TTM gets bad and I give myself hell
I don't want to be so damn angry anymore
I don't want to feel like waking up is a chore
and I don't want to always be looking for the exit
my self confidence was growing until death hit
my grandpa helped raise me
and death took him away
but my biological mother is still here
I don't know to say
I became a first generation college student
and she couldn't take the seconds out of her day
just to congratulate
no wonder I am so angry
and I just want to change me
rejection tore self esteem apart
now I just want to erase me
standing there with a kitchen knife
am I a coward for not doing it,
or am I one for wanting to ditch life?
anger and cowardice
that mixed drink leaves me powerless
I just want safety from insecurity
I just want to grow into maturity
tell me why the hell anger has her hands on me
please give me the strength to just breathe
and put things back together
even if they'll never be the same again.

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