Is actually getting on Survivor, making it to the final 4 and being in the fire-making challenge, but not just losing. But being in a Sundra/Becky situation where neither me nor my opponent can make fire and Jeff has to interrupt and say we're going to matches. Even WINNING would be embarrassing as fuck at that point. That situation is literally nightmare fuel.
my biggest fear would be the heather situation where my fire is perfect til it just dies and i lose bc ik id be celebrating in my head prematurely