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This pretty much sums up my mental health.

Aug 19, 2018 by nikw98
"I wake up and all the bad things are forgotten. All of the negative thoughts and feelings are washed away. It's a clean slate. Then, as time passes, I feel like I'm underwater and I can't breathe. All I want to do is drown and give up. So many emotions that are so difficult to understand and explain resurface. I remember why I was so sad the night before. Why i wanted to cry myself back to sleep and wake up again. I cry when I'm alone. I don't want anyone to think anything is wrong. When people are near, I hold it in. Pretend that I have no capability of having sad emotions. When I lay in bed, next to the person I love more than anything, I feel my emotions screaming to break free. I can see each of them hitting and kicking the glass wall I have built to keep them away. It's cracking. It's about to break and if it does, I'll do something I'll regret. I'll hurt one of the only people that cares. So I do the only rational thing I can. I go to sleep...
I wake up and all the bad things are forgotten. All of the negative thoughts and feelings are washed away. It's a clean slate."
- Nik W.

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Omg wow <3 this is amazing
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