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It’s 2AM, and I’m having PTSD.

1stNov 1, 2018 by maturo
If you’re curious as to why I am having it, then I’ll let you know. My senior year of high school was under way and I found myself going out more irl and being inactive on tengaged. I permed #TheJoe. That’s not important, it’s what happened after the fact. I got in legal trouble around October 2015 and because of my disability diagnosis (it wasn’t autism at the time) they decided to send me to a developmental and behavioral boarding school to get my head in check rather than trying me as a adult (I was 17)

This account belonged to one of my friends during my 5 month hiatus between Nov 2015 - Mar 2016. Back to the school, it was called “Eagleton” it was out in the berkshires of Massachusetts. (West) and it was good to get some freedom at first but then I met what life away from home was actually like. No phone, no TV...nothing. It only got worse when around January, police were getting called for reports of violence and abuse on staff and students. The staff weren’t getting abused, it was the students. It happened to me too. Verbally and physically. There was this woman who would throw items at me and call me “retarded” and “no good” and she would legitimately watch me sleep to make sure I wasn’t gonna run away or whatnot. The worst part was that she made me sleep on my back and have my hands above the blankets.

The school had been around since the 70s and no one ever suspected anything like this from a place where so much success and wonderful things had been reported for so many years. It came to the point where the teachers were bribing kids with their diplomas and even money to keep their mouth shut. I refused my diploma and said something to my mom. My administrator lied right through her teeth saying “everything was fine.” Before you think my mom didn’t believe me, she knew I wanted to go home so she could’ve thought I was just saying this...

In the end, the freedom was great and the schooldays were fun and I kind of miss it. Not the abuse part though. I wish I went earlier so I could’ve had the help I needed before all this crap went down. The school closed in 2016 and the staff members who were responsible for their harsh actions are being charged and even a few have already been fined or sentenced. The woman responsible for the abuse on me had already been charged in the past. She was given a larger fine and she lost custody of her 14 and 12 year old daughters.

This was a dark part of my life and I’m only 20. Thank you guys for reading and I hope you know this isn’t any type of situation where I am trying to make you feel bad, I really just needed to let this out.

TLDR: abusive boarding school

Comments

I am sorry to hear message me on snapchat if you need to talk :p
Sent by Batya,Nov 1, 2018
+ cause u left a tldr;
Sent by FighterMan,Nov 1, 2018
I am so sorry man that sounds legit awful. It’s stuff like this that makes people in a fractured mental state believe they’ll never get better but I’m so glad you’ve come so far!!!
Sent by FromAWindow,Nov 1, 2018
:(
Sent by Blitszims,Nov 1, 2018
Shit like this shouldn't happen to anyone :/
I'm sure because of all this you're a lot stronger now mentally
I'm glad you were able to fight through the pain , now just use this experience to benefit yourself Joe :)
if you ever need to talk hit my messages up bub
Sent by spikedcurley,Nov 1, 2018
:(
Sent by labobble,Nov 1, 2018
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Sent by Arris,Nov 1, 2018
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Sent by xMountain22x,Nov 1, 2018
ily
Sent by melindaMrskk,Nov 1, 2018
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Sent by peace123,Nov 1, 2018
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Sent by astone929,Nov 1, 2018
:(
Sent by Passionfruit,Nov 1, 2018
Im so sorry you went through this... I to have ptsd so i know some what how u feel  maturo :(
Sent by tiffanox3,Nov 1, 2018
Im sorry, Joe. Mental illness is a big problem and its so courageous that you're able to talk about these things. I know we've had our issues in the past, but I feel really bad about them. You're a better person than you think.
Sent by zachbbs,Nov 1, 2018
damn :( I'm sorry you had to go through shit like that
Sent by Kob3Sm1th,Nov 1, 2018
Oh my god, I remember talking to you for HOURS one night and you were discussing how you were nervous but excited to go to this boarding school... that's so awful. I'm so sorry =[
Sent by mathboy9,Nov 1, 2018
hey at least the redsox won tho
Sent by Sam_Hamwich,Nov 1, 2018
:(
Sent by Minniemax,Nov 1, 2018
love you Joe :( always stay strong
Sent by RedFabFoxy,Nov 1, 2018
I donno that I believe you
Sent by Scononduders,Nov 1, 2018
scononduders
2016 assault case and closure
In January 2016, five employees were charged with an assault on a student. Four additional staff were also fired for abusive actions. [3]. As result of the incident, the school's license to operate was revoked by the Commonwealth of Massachusetts, and the school shut down in April, 2016[4][5]
Sent by mathboy9,Nov 1, 2018
omfg :(
Sent by YasGaga,Nov 1, 2018
What mathboy9?
Sent by Scononduders,Nov 1, 2018
:( sorry you went through all this!
Sent by Etienne,Nov 1, 2018
Shit happens. Glad you're okay now
Sent by XxLoveWakizaxX,Nov 2, 2018

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