Does anyone really know how hard it is to wanna go and never look back on a place they once thought was a comfort zone? I've been pushed to my limits.... I've been wondering if it is just me that wants to let go after being on here so damn long, but I don't seem to be alone. All around me, people who have made me the person I am today are wanting to do the same thing that I've been on the fence about since June. I just kept thinking it will get better... it will get better....
But then I realized something.... it's not the same Tengaged it once was.... this Tengaged is a totally different animal. It's not even half as fun as it used to be... it's getting much harder to get on and enjoy shows that you've created because people wish for shows to be happy-go-lucky and easy. I think the main reason why I've not been able to enjoy anything half as much as I used to is because of that..... when all you do is positive shows, it seems to get a little sickening, too blase and something that I don't wish on anybody.
I'm not taking a break, as this is my escape from reality.... it's my little safe haven away from the world... I'm just gonna not be as willing to be stuck within the confines of always being positive. I think the main reason I've not enjoyed shows and part of the reason why Tengaged shows have fallen by the wayside is because everyone makes it too positive. I like the dark and edgy shows that have been on tengaged {Wide Awake, Storyline} much more than the normal humdrum shows. Sometimes, you need that edge to make it bearable, and it has to come from somewhere.... right?
What I'm saying is... don't let the negatives get pushed aside on a show. Life isn't always positive and grand, so why do RPers make it out to be?
