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my mom died in july, 2019

1stDec 24, 2020 by heyitsmaggee
imagei remember when she told me about her stage 4 lung cancer. it was in november 2018. christmas 2018 was so hard. we all knew it would be our last one with her. we had catered food because no one had the energy to cook like we usually did. we just sat around crying all day. all fucking day.

when she died, there was a small sense of relief because she was in so much pain and just couldn't breath at all.

then christmas 2019 rolled around and it was absolutely awful. my family didnt get together at all. i spent the day alone at my own house. one of the only things i got from her was our family christmas ornaments. i put them on my tree at home and it felt nice. her birthday is 1/1 so thats like 2 weeks of hell ruining two holidays.

this year, i tried putting the ornaments on the tree but as soon as i opened the box i started to bawl. there were some she hand made from like 1988 in there. seeing her hand writing was so hard. knowing she touched those items. i closed up the box and threw away my tree. i just cant do it.

i wish i could say it gets better each year but it doesn't.

she was the one person i would call when anything happened. anything bad or good or anything. she always loved me and accepted me. its so hard.

coming into my own as a woman, i realize how much i look like her. its so crazy.

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I’m so sorry to hear about your loss ily. I lost my grandmother this past September, every Christmas for the past 8-9 years has been spent with her, this Christmas really hurts so I know how you’re feeling. I’m here for you <3
Sent by mbarnish1,Dec 24, 2020
I’m so sorry to hear this. U got all my support maggee <3
Sent by Midiaw,Dec 24, 2020
I’m sorry her my grandpa was s diagnosed with the same ❤️
Sent by kingjames13,Dec 24, 2020
kingjames13 good luck on this journey. its a rough time. im thinking about you guys <3
Sent by heyitsmaggee,Dec 24, 2020
aw im so sorry for your loss :(
Sent by Arris,Dec 24, 2020
❤️❤️❤️
Sent by AmandaBynes,Dec 24, 2020
I’m soo sorry. I know she is looking down and proud of you.
Sent by pinkiepie512,Dec 24, 2020
Whew there must be something out there that has us all posting about dead parents.

Thank you for your story and you do favor each other a lot
Sent by konohavillage1,Dec 24, 2020
I’m so sorry for your loss hun.. unfortunately I know the feeling 😔💔 its heartbreaking.
Sent by Vanili,Dec 24, 2020
So sorry Maggee❤️ She’s looking down on you proud
Sent by austino15fffan,Dec 24, 2020
<3 I'm so sorry to hear this
Sent by crazybone5000,Dec 24, 2020
I truly understand..this is the first Christmas without my mommy.
Sent by Briana4HouTexans,Dec 24, 2020
❤️❤️❤️
Sent by mancebo,Dec 24, 2020
Sending love to you
Sent by Miiaa,Dec 24, 2020
So sorry... All my support <3
Sent by lFock,Dec 24, 2020
❤️
Sent by Timster,Dec 24, 2020
♥️
Sent by ManniBoi,Dec 24, 2020
Hey sis us Golden girls are gonna stick together!!!

You are carrying on your moms legacy and it’s ok to NOT be okay. You know you can message me.

Take care and snuggle with the man ❤️
Sent by Allison,Dec 24, 2020
I lost my dad to lung cancer aswell. Just know they are always with us and your mum will be by your side full of pride. 💕
Sent by Seann,Dec 24, 2020
I’m sorry for your loss :( Death of a parent is something I fear immensely even though I have strained relations with both of my parents (my family is insanely toxic). I hope you’re able to draw some sense of comfort this holiday. Stay strong ♥️
Sent by Patrick319,Dec 24, 2020
sorry to hear that :(
Sent by coreyants,Dec 24, 2020
very sorry to hear, sending love <3
Sent by J2999,Dec 24, 2020
++++ :( sorry

sending love <3
Sent by alexDspain,Dec 24, 2020
I’m so sorry for your loss ;(
Sent by M2thamax,Dec 24, 2020
So sorry for your loss:(
Sent by Benley,Dec 25, 2020
I have no word other than, We will be here for you! 🥰🥰
Sent by ChrisParker13,Dec 25, 2020

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