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My Mental Health

Apr 23, 2021 by hellocat
this past week has been quite upsetting for me personally. I don't think I've felt happy at any point for the entirety of the seven days, I found myself only eating half of my lunch because I just don't have the appetite for it, it's all just been a very long drag.

I go on and on about mental health on my blogs page, and I can say that I feel my own mental wellbeing really taking a toll, regularly I will find one single tear down my cheek, just one every now and then. I'm not really a crier, I like to keep a tough exterior when I'm around others, and so that's why I feel a lot more comfortable expressing myself on this site, on the blogs page.

Let's go into my week, I had to book an appointment and I went to go and do it without realising booking had already opened a day earlier, and you guessed it, it was fully booked by the time I went on it. Then yesterday was my hell, where I really took a toll in my happiness. I was told that my crush had sexually harassed another female (put his hand up his skirt), I was super shocked because he honestly was the sweetest, most kindest and funniest man I probably had ever met, I had held him to such a high standard and never thought he would do such a thing. We knew each other quite well, and the crush developed and indirectly, I had my heart broken. The rest of the day was so long, all I could think about was him and just praying it wasn't true, but then, I was shown a video. The video was my crush basically harassing the woman, at that point I grabbed my sunglasses, put them over my eyes and had a cry because at that point I was the saddest I've felt for years and probably my first proper time I've balled in 5/6 years. This just goes to show and further proves that we don't mean all men, but we can't tell WHICH men. So when I came home that day I got into my jammies and ate ice cream (as you do when your heart is broken) and spent the rest of the day sad.

The Friday was a bit better, I did my morning routine, and my brain was really working, but there must've been something off about me because my students asked me if I was alright, I had another mini cry in the staff room and just tried to stay positive. After that I came home, had some fish and chips and listen to music.

Anyway sorry for the long blog, you probably won't see my using my normal influx of emojis on skype just because I don't have motivation for anything. I feel like I'm entering a bit of a bumpy patch right now, and all I can wish for is that next week is a bit better. I will keep spouting about mental health and will still be a support if anyone needs it <3.

If you read all of this, thank you <3

Comments

SOrry to see all this ): hope things improve soon for you
Sent by J2999,Apr 23, 2021
i love you kat! <3
Sent by varlto,Apr 23, 2021
If you need someone tot ask to I am always here :(
Sent by crimsonteer,Apr 23, 2021
Love you queen 鉂わ笍
Sent by Russell11,Apr 23, 2021
It will get better!
Sent by manafa,Apr 23, 2021
Keep your head up! I know everyone will say this but it does actually get better. Hugs
Sent by Kiara_xoxo,Apr 23, 2021

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