For attention they tend to try to start shit. So as far as what Ella has on me or does not have on me I don't care. I know she can release some shit in regards to my childhood that I told her, possible some pictures, and maybe a few other things. So let me release it before she can being as I am not ashamed of it nor am I scared.
Yes she can tell you all that I had a shit childhood and that I was a victim of some child hood trauma. I never hid that. I am not proud of it but it was not my fault. I was also a victim of domestic violence. Its time that people like me stop being afraid that others are going to find out and think different of them. I myself have dealt with this in the past. I have felt less then, as if I did not belong. As if others found out that they would deem me broken, defective, or not worthy of the title human. I struggle with it from time to time.
On to the pictures. Well I am not quite sure what I sent. If someone wants to look go ahead. I'm sorry. It's not my fault if you get mentally scared from them lol. I thought I could trust her.
I too could release some shit on her but I wont. The things she told me and the things we went threw together were personal. I refuse to spread things that she told me simply because there not my demons to release. What I will do is pray for her. Pray that she finds some peace as I know she deserves it. I will also pray for her sobriety because I know that the Ella I knew is not the Ella I am seeing now. Then again maybe this is the true Ella and I just seen a better version of her as the true one because I cared for her. Love threw rose colored glasses or such.
On that note, if anyone needs to talk because they too went threw some shit, I'm here.
You're a brave person heatherlum . And pay her no mind. She's coming from a place of hurt. and in my experience hurting people often hurt others. You've a good heart. Hang in there