So last night I posted a blog about what I was remembered for on here. Everything that was said was pretty much what I expected...
You see I've been on Tengaged for 8 1/2 years and It has been a major influence on my life. I'm going to be 30 in a few months and married in December. So with that being said I want to address things I've done on tengaged.
Firstly. When I first started this website I had just turned 22 and was googling Survivor online games. And I found this site. At that point in my life I was getting drink every day. I was taking alcohol to work and drinking and leaving work and going out to the club, where I would end up going home with some random guy just to repeat the cycle the next day. I hit a low in my life after losing my first job, couldn't afford rent, and couldn't afford to drink anymore- so I got help. I needed help. So I left this site behind for the 5 month program. It worked I did clean my act up. I got a better job and moved on. However tengaged started to become a big influence on my life. I started wanting designs so I would buy ts. I've bought a lot of ts, well over 1000$ every time I enrolled in stars I had bought them. Every time I gifted anyone I bought the ts. Anytime I bought a design I was using my real money. Tengaged became my new alcohol. I invested sooo much into the site, that I wanted to "buy" friends and stars support.
Soon enough I met my first tengageder robbieriot he came over to my house and we made out, I made him dinner, and we cuddled. There was no sex, but because of my reputation everyone really thought we hooked up. Never happened folks! That meet up changed a lot of things for me on the site. My Skype would always have messages from guys wanting pics or to cam, actually I still get messages on tengaged asking for the same thing today! I enjoyed it, I enjoyed the attention. I liked that people wanted to see my pics.
Then someone who I never expected to want to talk to me did. I fell for a straight guy. And boy did I fall hard. Monty/Vatche I honestly can't remember his real name today (probably due to pot) and I talked for months, growing attached to one another. He had a girlfriend, but always said he was into me more. He told me so many things that I was shocked at, I honestly could have never thought he would be into me the way that he was. We traded pics and cammed every night for months. And then finally he asked me what I thought about him coming down to visit me. I loved the idea, and he came down for a weekend. We had a ton of sex, he claimed I was his first ever. I guess I expected more from him, I don't know. To this day it haunts me with what I did to him in the aftermath. I think that was by far the worst thing I have ever done to another human being. I didn't do it for a million dollars like Varner, I probably in all honesty did it to mark my territory on tengaged- I had sex with a straight guy and made him fall in love with me. I am an asshole for it. I regret it deeply. But it's part of my truth.
Things changed, people either loved me or hated me after. One moderator was very much against me, so I kinda laid low for a while. Then one of my really good friends on the site asked me, after knowing some things that were going where I was living if I wanted a "fresh start" of course I said yes, so Tinabeena bigmamat and I came out to Maine to stay with her. I didn't know where life would take me, it was an adventure. What happened in that month was for Tina and I to figure out, and although many of you have imputed yourselves in our drama- it has nothing to do with any of you. Was I in the wrong? Yes. Did Tina do me a favor? Yes. Did Tina change my life? Yes, for the better. I love Tina. We may not talk everyday, but when I drive by her house I smile, knowing that because of Tina I met the man of my dreams, the man who took my anger away, the man who helped me quit smoking cigarettes, the man who taught me to drive, the man who I own my first house with, the man who helped me get back into school. The man I'll be marrying in just over 7 months. I owe a lot to Tina, I probably owe her my life.
My nudes have went around this site for a very long time, I know that. I know in most of the pictures I am hot, in some- I honestly don't know what I was thinking with the pic. Lmao. I don't have a single persons pic from this site, actually that's a lie- I have one guys, who I will always have the biggest crush on, but that's here nor there. Who is it? I'll never tell! My fiancé does know though, and he thinks they are really hot! I don't have the body I had back when I was sending pics of myself everyday, I gained a lot of weight, so looking back and seeing some pics!!! Damn was I hot.
Dannyjr is known for stars. I even played stars for other people via skype, and told them who to lock in. I love the challenge of stars, and I am a game player. My fiancé was amazed at how I could manipulate someone so quickly and make them trust me when I played in front of him the past 3 stars I've played. It kills me that I have never won, and I will probably never win. I have 500ts in my account, so one day I'll join my 20th and last stars. I don't know when that will be & I can't even imagine who I would play with. Stars and winning was my only goal on this site, and to have played 19 times and make it to finals 5 times (each of those times I did play the best game) and make it to 4th and 5th sometimes Unnommed and lose I never knew what I could do to win that game.
In my own right I am a legend on Tengaged. Not because Im a karma whore, or a multiple stars winner, or just a blogger... Whether it be because of my villainous acts, my nudes, or my stars play... I have earned a spot somewhere in .com land for being a big name on one website.
I love you < 333 I'm so happy that you have found your path and I was a part of your journey. We need to do lunch sometime soon...maybe May 3rd? (payday haha)
bigmamat The 3rd I may actually have off of work. I can't remember. I think I have either the 3rd or 4th off. So either of those days would work for me! I will text you and let you know when I get my schedule!
< 3 You Dannyjr0587 I'm so proud to see you grow and change for the better. I can't tell you how much I empathized reading this, I really do feel you very much so. I've hit low points too and I'm sure there's still more to come but when they do I'll think of this blog :)
LMAO, did people really think you and Robbie fucked after one night of meeting? My sister would NEVER, he's a saint. Plus, you're white. In all seriousness, I'm happy to hear you're doing well!
Aaaaand girl, you look so much better with some weight on IMO. Don't let ~anyone~ tell you differently.
