This is something that I have wanted to do for a very long time but haven't quite been able to until now. I really wanna open up about this issue because I know a lot of people in the Tengaged community relate to it and I want all those people to know that they are not alone in their struggles.
As most of you don't know I suffer from an extreme form of anxiety. Something as simple as hanging out with friends can give me a full blown panic attack. More often than not I have night time panic attacks that wake me up from my sleep: heart racing, wild anxious thoughts- it leaves me scared and unable to fall back to sleep. In some regards I am extremely social. My anxiety is way less when I'm drunk so I often times find myself wanting to drink every time I go anywhere with anyone. I hate long car rides, being in lines gives me panic attacks...I could really go on and on about the battles I face in my every day life. I stay strong because I am determined to be successful even with this setback.
The point is, for those of you that can relate to this you are not alone <3!
...and I will give you an overall rating (1-10) and a short opinion.
#malachite05 - 6.5, I dont know you too well but you seem like a really nice guy.
#semajdude - 9.5, you are a super cool dude and are one of my better friends on this site. Ily!
#1001games -10, broo you already know you were literally one of my first friends on this site and someone I can say I fully trust 100%. Still gotta go to the bar someday.
#eric_136 -7, we have had our ups and downs when it comes to games, but outside of games you have always been a good friend and a nice guy.
#amf7410 - 6, I also don't know you too well, but we did work together in a group game a long ass time ago, idk if u remember.
#_aria - 6, I don't think we have ever had a personal conversation but from what we have talked you seem pretty cool. Also a fan of your shop <3
#maturo -7, Joe you are a nice guy and we get along pretty good. We should talk more :)
#dakotacoons -7, first time I met you was on my Bachelor game. You have always been really nice and sweet.
musicinme -8, you're an awesome fratmate and always super loyal in games.
obstreperous - 7, you have been a loyal Party Tutor member for a very long time. We definetely need to talk more.
lazeric - 7.5, you are a pretty cool dude. Sometimes i feel like u low key dont like me or something. But u have always been a good friend.
XxLoveWakizaxX - 7, I think you're really good at games and know how to make smart decisions, sometimes though you are willing to make a move against someone your building a friendship with to win a game, and I respect that. But building trust with you is a little hard.
tryandbeatme16 - 9, another one of my first friends on this site. You are super nice and loyal. Even though you deleted me off your friends list lol.
grrrimabear - 6.5, don't know you that good, but from what we have talked you seem like a really cool dude.
brandonpinzu - 5, I don't know you at all really. Or not that I can remember.
darbe - 9.5, Brad!!! You are such a sweet guy and if our time difference wasn't so drastic we would probably be best friends.
vanili - 9.5, another one of the sweetest people on Tengaged. You are such a sweet heart.
shellbelle - 10, Michelle babe you know how much you mean to me. I'm so happy we met because you have a heart of gold and mean the world to me <3.
rocketokid13 - 6, i dont know you that good, but we have talked a few times and you have always been nice to me.
novamax243 - 6, I dont know you that well, but I always felt like you were someone's multi.
finn315 - 5, you pretty much always come after me in games, but I don't have anything against you personally.
roshy - 9, You're another person who is really good at these games. And somehow you manage to be pretty loyal. You're also cute and a nice guy :).
lliiaamm - 8, every single game I have played with you we have always worked together. You're super chill and trustworthy, we should talk more.
kob3sm1th - 8, we met in a weird way lmfao, but you were super helpful and since have been an awesome dude. I think we could be good friends of we got to know each other better.
bengalboy - 7, we have never really had a one on one conversation, but from what I've seen of you around Tengaged you seem like a good guy. Your blogs are often pretty funny too.
manniboi - 7, omg i remember when you made Marcus hate me lol. He still don't talk to me now. At the time I thought that was fucked up but since then you have been pretty cool and I got over it.
acyuta - 8, you are one of the nicest people on Tengaged. And I'm happy we met on here. We definetely need to talk more and get to know each other better.
eva1 - 8.5, we used to be really good friends on here and always skayed with each other in games. Now I feel like you dont like me no more. Or maybe it's cause we never talk now. Either way i miss you <3.
dwipeouts - 5, don't think we have ever talked or worked together in games. So feel neutral about you.
steven999 - 6.5, I dont really remember how exactly we met. But i know we used to work together in games a lot. We should get to know each other better.
ghrocky100 -6, do't know you personally but you seem cool and I'm a fan of your blogs.
TaraG - 10, one of my closest friends on thiss site. You are always there for me and I know I can always count on you. Love u mucho <3
Look in the mirror homeboy frozenshadow09 / frozen / all your other accounts because you have no life. Only reason our tribe has done poorly is because our best scorers have thrown all the challenges. People on your tribe literally pm'ed us begging us to throw. Which I didn't do, but obviously my tribemates wanted to do.
Either way I'ma do whatever the fuck I feel like doing and you blogging about me on 10 different accounts means nothing to me, at all. Get a life :D.
