Shawnpat7. I know, everyone thinks I am entitled, Cherry drama, blah blah but this is actually different.
I had a mental breakdown a few hours ago, and was just going to suicide for 7th in hunger, fuck payouts, and log off. And I honestly wish this asshole had let me do it.
But instead for some reason, maybe he gets off on taking advantage of emotionally vulnerable women, he talked me into coming back. He made me go on call with him, he told me not to give up, that I had worked hard and deserved better, told me to ask Tico to run and then said he (Shawn) would fight me for 5th. He basically told me he would let me win and kill him, and I would get all of his health and have full health going forward into the top 3.
He told me "his friendship with me means more than 5th place." So I had been fully fucking willing to accept 7th place on MY terms, and he talked me into it and basically told me I would make the top 4 at least and he would help me.
He also told me he was colorblind, bad at every challenge, and that his maces were gone.
I don't know one colorblind person who gets a RAW score of 146 in count me with hunger time. So either the colorblind thing was a lie and count is his best challenge, or else he still had the mace (and attacked me, insisting on attackers on top of secretly having the mace.)
Normally I'd never save count me at an xp disadvantage, but after him telling me he was colorblind and assuring me he is so bad he saves 120 in every challenge, I had a false sense of security.
Then even knowing I was down to 10 health, he still was a fucking bitch and wouldn't even save any challenge I would win at, because "my friendship means more than 5th place" but you know, not enough to lose 10 health and let me at least have one moral victory before I died.
Then he trapped me in deal when I was too low to even run.
So again, Shawn, what was the point of this? I would have been much happier taking my 7th place, giving Tico health to go forward, and logging off for the night. My mood is so much worse now, all because you decided to deceive me for your own sick head games?
Like fuck off. You also told me ages ago you would take 6th if I let you in my alliance, and you told me you'd help me win if I got you to payouts.
Instead you just were an asshole, and for what? I'm always very nice to you, I stupidly thought we were friends.
Fuck off, enjoy being a piece of shit, and I can't wait for my boyfriend Hisoka to kill you.
Logging off now. I'll be back at some point for my survivor challenge.
The parts that I鈥檒l address.
Colorblind yes- everyone that knows me knows this. It鈥檚 called Tritanopia which makes it difficult to tell shades. I don鈥檛 see in black and white. So assuming that is your fault.
I clearly used the weapons I had as I fought Jenna twice.
I talked you out of 7 th Bc you deserved Pay outs
Maybe tell the story of why you went crazy at f7? And they鈥檇 know why I called you to calm you down. I agreed to fight you for 5th saying you would easily beat me but luckily we got deal twice. How is that my fault? I had the arrows to shoot you dead before we even started fighting I could have had I not been okay with losing. Can鈥檛 help the comps like me this time. I鈥檓 perfectly fine with my 3rd place. I knew I was never winning.
Still would like to be friends when this rant is over.
I lied, I logged back for a minute. I am not a fucking idiot, shawnpat7 I didn't think you saw in black and white, do not ever imply you think I am stupid, thanks. I know what colorblindness is, and there are different types.
But most colorblind people I know have trouble with count me. gabrieltrezza for instance refuses to play count me unless his life absolutely depends on that. And since you MENTIONED it as "evidence" that you can't "play half the challenges" you were clearly trying to deceive me. Also, I have no idea if you actually saved with Jenna or if one of you ran every time. Or if you had more than the two maces. Clearly nothing you say can be trusted.
And don't play dumb with the "it's not my fault we got deal twice." You lied to me about your challenge abilities, about wanting to help me, and then you ran zoo and words, because you didn't want me to have even a tiny chance of coming back and feeling better about myself.
Don't pretend you care about me, all you care about is wanting to win, and you proved that you're essentially just an asshole. Should have let me stay logged off. Xanny and I would have resolved our personal things without you telling me to keep playing and promising me I'd make top 4.
