I may aswell fucking talk about it. I didn't want to because of tengaged history of saying shits a lie for stars support etc , so I was waiting until after . If I decided too say it on here at all .
I don't know if I have cancer yet . I found out on Tuesday a recent ct scan has shown up with what could be tumours . I have to go and get more tests to know what it is .
I'm fine I dont want anything from this i doont want sympathy i doont even know if it is cancer yet. I just want to give context seems as someone decided to make it their job to reveal my personal buisness .
It sent me off the rails a little when I found out , I tried to just mask but inevitably it effected my mental health and how I interacted . I snapped when I wouldn't normally of . And this is where Mario comes into it . The literal reason he knows about it is because I told him when apologising for reacting badly to something and telling him I'm fine with him voting me because he kept threatening to do so and calling mee names . Because I wanted to explain why . And i never said i have cancer I said I foundnout yesterday I have POSSIBLE CANCER . and we both know I can screenshot it and prove that . So the fact you took the time to lie about it too .
I think that's my last straw with this game though . I talked really only to littlemix and sebbers about this until today . When I told a few others so they knew why my mood was off and I was so down mentally . And this has shown exactly why I was fucking scared to talk about this in the first place .
So yeah all in all a massive fuck you too mario23 . Once I'm out this game I'll be logging out to focus on getting myself better . The one thing I've learned is this isn't a place to be when you're going through serious things .
And to the cast mates thst have supported me since I found out which is most of them . Thank you iappreciate all of you and your advice more than you'll ever know
And yall don't have ti believe this it's fine lmao , I'd be dubious too <3 I mean I already share a first name with zachup right. lmao
Anyway I'm just positively manifesting that at best ifs just a scare and at worst it's benign , I don't know yet so positivity is where I'm at <3 signing out for a few because I need a reset I wasn't expecting to have to actually address this publically today.
We love you, and are all praying for and rooting for you to be okay 💙 im sorry the power to tell your own story on your terms- was taken from you. Thats really nasty. But focus on yourself and do whatever you need to do for your mental health until you can get more answers 😇
Oh man that’s so stressful; i hope everything goes ok - if you ever want to talk to someone, feel free to message me - dunno how helpful I can be but I’m a good listener. <3
Anyways hopefully this is nothing major and you’ll be recovered very quickly! If you caught it this early there’s no reason to not be positive, good luck
