I honestly think it was a blessing in disguise that some of my most treasured friendships on this site ended.
Leaving for as long as I did really shows you who actually cares about you. Thankful for those I have kept in touch with over the years. There was a point where I was sad that people I considered to be my best friends weren't my best friends anymore. But honestly, its given me a chance to make new friendships that are lasting.
People change and I'm done mourning and trying over people who just don't care about me anymore.
I hope to make new friends now that I'm back for a while.
I woke up this morning with a really bad headache so he insisted on driving me to work today and picking me up from work. He took me to Starbucks on the way to work and bought me my favorite coffee and a protein box. He just showed up about 30 minutes ago and brought me soup and salad from Olive Garden because he knows it's my favorite. He said he will make us steak, potatoes and asparagus after he picks me up from work and rented a movie on amazon prime for us to watch.
After a nice chat with someone on this site, I felt that this blog was important to write.
I want to apologize to the era of tengaged that was around when I was a mod back in 2013-2014. While now only 3 people on this website know the true cause of my downfall, it's important that I say that I am sorry for who I was and how I treated people.
Only the people who were mods at the time know who did what bans, who used the tmod account, etc. We all know what mistakes we made and know now that they should have been handled better.
I made a lot of mistakes in my time as a mod here. While my real life was spiraling out of control, I took advantage of the fact that the one thing I could control was people on this website. I know that I hurt a lot of people in the process. I ruined a lot of good friendships and people suffered because of it. I'm owning up to my mistakes and I am sorry for anyone that I hurt in the process.
I left this site for 6 years aside for signing back in 2 years ago to inform everyone of Sammy's death. After I left tengaged I finished up college, got a degree, got into a Master's program and got married. I'm not the same person that I was 6 years ago. I have grown incredibly over the time being away from this website.
So I am sorry to those I hurt in my time as a mod here. I know not all of you will accept my apology and I understand why. Please know I am trying to make amends and be responsible for my actions.
Totally irrelevant but I decided to log back in to update everyone that I got married IRL. Crazy.