When I was 16 I was overly depressed I had failing marks in all my courses and I had like 0 social life because I was bullied in school, anyways one day I snuck into my parent's bathroom to their medical cabinet and was going to try to overdose on pills, but my sister caught me and I didn't do it again. Later that year Eminem put out a song called Not Afraid and it honestly changed my life and That's why my username is what it is :)
The way I usually come up with my names. I press a letter (hopefully a consonant) and then I Follow it up with a vowel, coupled with another consonant and so on, while trying to make it sound good.