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69th comment gets a gift

Dec 11, 2017 by XoAmanda

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69th
Sent by DJ2722,Dec 11, 2017
Me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Tengaged keeps shutting off so this is going to take a really long time
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Me
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This is annoying
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But I’ll do it
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Because I believe this blog is genuine
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And what else have I to do
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
When I was in Varadero
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was held back by something inside of me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But I know that past ... I call it a switch
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On the other side of the switch
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There’s so much I know I can do and want to do
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
So I left Varadero
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I left Varadero and I went to Havana
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Alone, I went by myself
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And I was terrified because
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I couldn’t break out of ... I can’t break out of
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Whatever’s holding me back
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
How could I function?
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Anxiety, it overwhelmed me so it felt like I wasn’t able to move
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I tried to make some friends
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I did
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But I wasn’t- I didn’t feel like a complete person
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I didn’t know what kind of a person I was so far away from home
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
The air was exotic
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I bought a coconut- a straight up coconut off a tout for 1 cuc
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I made some more friends
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
A pair of foreign exchange students
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
One of them- she didn’t know me but she seemed genuinely interested in me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I’ll never forget this friendship
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It felt unreasonably pure
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I said I was from Canada
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was solitary in Havana but I was talking to these two English university students
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
So I wasn’t alone
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But I was still held back
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was afraid constantly - it felt like I was talking through an invisible barrier
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I drank from my coconut on concrete steps
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I remember I was at a restaurant
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was a vegetarian - I am a vegetarian
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It sparked a conversation
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With some Danish folks
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But it wasn’t a debate
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
They were old and beautiful
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And they spoke English
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
A lovely married couple who truly loved one another
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I just remember, the woman, so pure and so gentile, she had said she couldn’t find nice mangos on the island she lived on back home
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I remember thinking - what’s Denmark?
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Because ... it hadn’t existed until that moment
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Somewhere so far away was a place they called home
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And it wasn’t Canada
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Canada stopped becoming a place
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was in Havana, solitary
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Kept beneath a layer, beneath which so much that was dying to come out
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was in that layer. I was trapped in that layer. I’m still in that layer.
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I remember being alone and surrounded by pairs of friends, family
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
How after all this? Am I solitary?
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But that was what I wanted
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I travelled alone to Havana pour apprendre à me débrouiller
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I
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I don’t think I did
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But I was more alive than I’ve ever been
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And I was young
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And society doesn’t show the ropes to 17 year olds
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Not where I’m from, not in Gatineau
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But how could I be able to blow up my world if I’ve never met the world?
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
That’s what Havana did for me
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I’ve built myself up in the last weeks
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But I lost everything 2 weeks ago
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And I am still reeling from the events that will follow
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No ones been told this
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I couldn’t bare telling this to someone in my world
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But as I’m spamming to 69 comments on blog in a virtual website
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I received my drivers license some weeks ago
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
My 2nd time out alone I
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I shouldn’t have backed in ... but
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
So I scraped the car next to me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
A man was in it, his children in the back
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Woe is me!
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
The man verbally ... I beg your pardon but he verbally I guess he verbally abused me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And oh there was screaming and I seized up
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I always think of it
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And then I’m unable to move again
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
He was screaming at me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And now I can’t bear it.. it feels like I’m being yelled at right now
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Like I was stuck in cubicle and someone was shoving me forever into the world I see past the switch
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I couldn’t break away from where I was put
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It made me feel totally totally stuck
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I am ... in the world I am and my manipulative mother and condescending sister have made sure of that
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I was forced into college ... you see I’m the type who should’ve gone without college
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for just a few years
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And college has kept me stuck as the person I can’t break away from
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I’m 18 in January and I’m not - I’m not really allowed to be an individual in this house
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
My vegetarianism has sparked horrid conditions
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But how could I leave something that helped me out of the darkest times of my life almost a year ago? Vegetarianism freed me once.
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It’s funny that restrictions could free a person
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I thought those were the darkest times of my life
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
When all I could listen to was Alexander Borodin ... the exact same song countless times ... it’s on my profile page because I can’t hide it anymore
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It gave me life and allowed me to feel in a time I was dying
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
After the car accident a part of me died and I’m trying to bring it back to life
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But it never will and I have to accept that, push past the switch and fall into the state of mind I need to be
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But that man ... screaming, his words and his violent gestures will have me afraid of men for the rest of my life
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
After the incident I cut myself ... I hacked at myself actually
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I’m sorry and I’ll spare the details but it was most definitely hacking because the knife was dull
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
It’s in my bedside tiroir right now ... I can’t think of the English word
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I planned my death and only did not do it because I couldn’t break out of the habits associated to college
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But if I had never gone to college, I wouldn’t ... I know I wouldn’t have wanted to die in the first place
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
I need to go to Estonia to be afraid again ... I need to lose my ability to move again and find my abilities
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Because I’ll always be Philip Christopher- Enzo Hobbs here to myself and everyone
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
But anywhere else ... I am Enzo Farion
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I am Lazarus come from the dead
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This is the 114th comment I think
I didn’t know I got that far out
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
You don’t have to gift me because this has been therapeutic for me
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And I don’t feel relieved but I’ve been able to put it all into perspective
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
And someday during my life I’ll have a tiny house in Tallinn, an apartment in Barcelona on the avenue La Rambia, a restaurant in Sàn Sebastian if this passion refinds myself and I will learn the piano if it is the last thing I fucking do.
Sent by Philip13,Dec 11, 2017
Have a nice night x
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