vanili let me first say, I lost my mom in 2018. It does get better, but its similar to that one saying cooking a frog so slowly they dont notice its killing them" kind of thing. No one can ever take that pain away, I still have it, but I got to a point of respecting my moms wishes, which are for me to be happy and successful. It will get harder first, just dont give up. Do lots of soul-searching. I learned so much about myself the year after she died.
And dont let shithead family try to talk down to you because you're greiving. Everyone grieves differently. It infuriates me when "well that was in 2018, you need to get over ot" like nom my biological link to my ENTIRE LIFE is now gone and its a whole new world. Feel free to ever reach out to me!
I had this exact same feeling earlier, I wish I could say whatever is the right thing.
You have the essence of her pumping in your veins, and she lives through your memory. Of course that doesn’t compare to the physical but I hope you know that you aren’t alone and she hasn’t left you.
I hope you’re surrounded by love this holiday, and I hope that it’s not too hard on you being without her.
im so sorry. my mom died july 2019 and last year was my first christmas/birthday without her. it was so hard. she was the one that kinda made christmas happen. without her, we didnt know what to do and honestly didnt want to do anything. i wish i could tell you it gets better... but it doesnt. im so sorry!!!