So first I want to say thank you to all of the nice mails and blogs that were written today. They were really nice and I may not be able to respond to all of them, but I'm grateful for the kind words that were said. Remember at the end of the day, good or bad, that game and this site are simply games and won't change anything in the long run - don't spend your energy being upset or mad about things like that, they're not a big deal in the grand scheme of things!
So today ended a pretty long chapter in my time on the site. I honestly never thought it would last that long, I think in my 3rd merge my tribe merged down 3-7 and my allies got picked off right away... Things turned around merging in this streak down 3-7 twice rather early on, and I'm surprised that I made it to the hall of fame and to eventually beat my good friend Pepper's streak as well. Of course everyone plays a game to do well, but I'm just as surprised as anyone else that I made it as long as I did.
I'm not mad at anybody that voted for me, they did exactly what I would have done and have done in their position. It was a smart and strategic move, I saw it coming and didn't feel like dodging bullets anymore. Gaston and I agreed a long time ago that after this game ended we would both be ready to move on from the site... over a year later that finally happened. We wanted to ride it out and see how long we could make it in the game, and somehow we got to this point so that's pretty cool. I'm personally not leaving out of any bitterness or anything like that, so please don't think that.
When I joined this site, I was missing something in my life. I've definitely found what I was missing and have been on such a positive path in my life in the past year and I'm ready to move forward, and to me that means leaving this site behind. There are a ton of people that I have met and become friends with, complete strangers that love me or hate me or couldn't care less either way, and I think that's made this experience the most interesting.
With that being said, the major purpose of this blog is to say thank you to one person, but a few quick things before that:
To MoreBeastThanYou and itspipez: I really wouldn't be here without either of you. We made those first few merges together and I made my Kill Bill revenge promise and somehow, crazily enough, it ended up working. Bryan, you are one of the most amazing friends I've ever met and our friendship absolutely doesn't stop here. Thank you SO much for everything you do and have done for ME. You are incredibly selfless and I can't tell you how much you mean to me. Zack, I'm sorry for being unfair towards you. I can't change how I felt at the time about what was going on, but I wish I had expressed it better and in a way that made more sense. Hopefully one day we can talk again and at least be friends.
To jallina15, Markb101, sjsoccer88, GothicZebra, Snix, stoopkid95, Razorclaw13, Rebelman2227, milkisgood, many others that I am sure I am forgetting, you were key allies that I met in this game and people that I feel I developed true friendships with. Hopefully those won't stop if I manage to come on Skype from time to time, but I just want you to realize how thankful I am that I did get the chance to meet you guys during that merge streak.
To Gabriel24, Shadowballer000, and xbac5: You are the three allies that I managed to keep for a long time in the game that I already had a form of friendship with prior to the game. This game definitely tested our friendships at times but also definitely made them stronger. Thank you guys for all being awesome and continuing to be my friend. Playing the game would not have been the same without you.
To everyone else that helped along the way, whether I merged with you, or whether you were supportive in mails, whether you were cheering for my demise ( JordanLloydFanAquamarine congrats on your Christmas dreams coming true xoxo, maybe next year wish for something like the end of world hunger or some Xanax or something) or joining to try to take us down or joining to try and help us and merge with us, all of it kinda helped me keep going and encouraged me not to just give up and say "fuck it", although that was tempting a lot. The game was not nearly as stressful as my previous long merge, but it still had its very tough moments and sometimes it was hard to stick with it.
This blog is already way too long but the whole purpose of it was for one person, and that's Gaston so nobody else really HAS to read any of it but here's your name dumb bitch so read this Phenomanimal. We've both been on this site for forever but somehow never met until this Survivor game, but I couldn't have asked for a better ally or friend throughout the last year. Something just clicked right away once you merged on, and we worked our asses off strategically and socially to go as far as we did, even if other people don't think so :p I've never told you before, but it's honestly been so much fun to play with you and I can't imagine having done it without you. I think we both kept each other going through a lot of times when we individually just didn't give a shit anymore, and that kind of competitiveness got us to the top. But beyond all of the stupid records and the game itself, I was happy to meet someone who just understood my way of thinking without me having to over-explain myself. We compromised a lot, there were times where we did things we didn't want to do for the sake of the other and in the end it always worked. I'm leaving the game and the site, but I'm keeping a friend for a really really long time. Thank you for helping to make me laugh and smile everyday, and for being such a nice person deep down under your cunty exterior ;) There's nobody else that I would have rather had this ridiculous year+ long journey with and the only bittersweet thing about it ending is that you're ending your streak because of me, but I would have done the same thing :p
I guess thanks to anyone who bothered reading all of this, and to anyone that I've gotten to know throughout my time on the site. I've been ready to go for a while and this is finally the time! I work a lot and haven't been online too much lately but I'll possibly be on skype every now and then, though a lot less often - but keep in touch and I will too! If I made anyone laugh or smile at any point in my time on the site, then my work here is definitely done and my time wasn't a waste :)
wow actually read the whole thing, nice and heartfelt and i'm glad you're taking away a positive experience from this site. good luck with everything you pursue in the future!
Its been an awesome 40 or so merges with you and I'm glad that we're a lot better friends now than when we were when you first merged. We spoke a few days ago and you told me you were ready to go and you really are, good luck with your real life and if you ever do decide to return to tengaged some day and want to go on this survivor ride one more time lemme know :P
Awwwwww :) I would say that I would miss you, but I know I won't have the time to, I know we'll be talking often :) And you know you have your part in my blog coming up tomorrow!
I've never spoken with you or played with you, but you seem like a really awesome individual. Good luck in life & of course Merry Christmas to you and yours :)
Good luck Ryan. I remember when you left your previous account and we met up again on the Spanish site. A lot has happened since then and I wish you the best!
Flattered to have made the long boring ass speech, glad they wished up and clicked your button
Way to spend time during the holidays to write this blog about something that won't matter in a few years
Thank you Ryan for the nice words. It honestly will not be the same without you on the tribe. I feel the most responsible for you getting evicted and I wish I wouldn't have put so much trust in people but in the end I can live with doing that instead of being sneaky to try to gain an edge like they did. Thanks for being a voice of reason and just a good guy in general.
I really didn't know you too well before survivor but we gained a lot of trust in our friendship. We may have not talked everyday but we were both busy; however, we each knew that we had each other's trust and I knew from the get go that I could believe everything you said to me and you knew where my head was at as well.
Not sure if I covered everything but thank you for everything and I definitely will talk to you on skype when I see you on and you do the same if you see me. I wish you the best in your life and I hope everything works out for you. Much respect!
I'm having mixed feelings on what to say on this blog..
I know how it feels to be voted out of a long streak and it's not so much a sadness at losing the game as it is a sorta gap in your normal routine, and for me it's always sad to know I won't be talking to them same people as much as I had gotten used too since when I am on a tribe with someone they basically become my online family.
I've had the pleasure to get to know you on a different survivor journey and I played a very tiny part in your current one and I have so many memories of those times that I won't forget. I can't really believe you defriended me because of one disagreement after all our years of friendship so I'm a little frustrated with you at the moment, but regardless I wish you the best in life and hope that you know that I will always be there for you should you ever need it and you know how to contact me.
Sorry Tits_McGee, this was nothing personal and I hope you know that. Whatever I do in the game is pure strategy, but nothing besides that. I'm glad you've found what you were looking for on this site and yeah, the life goes on and you're a great person in my oppinion. All the best!
