Today I went to my local chinese restaurant (bc I was craving chinese food), and I went over my order word-for-word like five times in my head, as I usually do.
When I stepped up to place my order, I said my order but managed to mess up the order of the words, which resulted in a jumbled sentence, and I felt so ashamed for getting it wrong. Luckily, the cashier understood what I meant and just smiled at me and told me "it'll take 10 minutes!".
I sat down and got extreme anxiety for making a fool of myself, but after a few minutes, a thought struck me..
Everything worked out anyway. I'm still alive. She understood my order, and nothing happened. I messed up the sentence, but no one died from it and nothing happened. Yeah, I felt ashamed and got anxiety for a few minutes but everything worked out anyway?
What was I expecting would happen?
Eitherway I got my food and it was delicious. Just walking into a restaurant and ordering food is something that I wouldn't have been able to do alone even 3 months ago. I'm noticing that I'm making progress with being social and not having to rely on other people to do stuff for me.
Yesterday I called my electricity provider because I wanted to change my provider, because they're expensive as hell. I had mentally prepared myself for that call for over a week.
The call lasted for 2 minutes, whereas I had to wait for one minute. Everything worked out just fine. They were super nice and didn't ask me any questions about why I wanted to switch companies or anything. And the important thing is that I did it without having to ask someone to do it for me.
Holy fuck I feel good. Massive pat on the back for being able to do this kindof stuff.
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The fact you're being present for events is a milestone in itself, be easy on yourself and just remember that you are 1 of 100/1000's of people she has and will be serving.
I work in retail and can barely remember 5 faces of 200 people i might serve in a day
I've done this, I just try to find humour in these things instead of worrying about them, it helps me a lot, if I laugh at myself then there's not much anyone can do to top that =D
I work in retail and can barely remember 5 faces of 200 people i might serve in a day