I’m sure some of you that know me have assumed or maybe even have joked about it before...
But i was clinically diagnosed with bipolar depression about 1.5 years ago. I don’t open up about this a lot but I feel like I’ve been really emotional recently and need to be honest with people so that they can understand me better.
I have really high high’s and really low low’s. I tend to read things to wrong way, or take things the wrong way that people may say to me and really triggers me. It really doesn’t take a lot for things to upset or irritate me, but I really try and control myself but sometimes it’s impossible. If I get something on my mind I feel like I have to express what I’m feeling or I’m going to combust.
Just ask quickly as I can be to be mad/sad/happy, whatever emotion, I can flip the switch and be completely over it a few minutes later. It really is a constant struggle but I do my best to keep myself in check and make sure that I’m keeping a cool head and being rational; but sometimes I truly just cannot control my emotions.
So for anyone that I have ever upset, made mad, or possibly made hate me; I’m truly sorry. But I hold no ill will towards anyone at all. I just cannot manage how I feel at times, but every day I’m trying to progress.
This is also in no way me trying to get sympathy from people, I just want people to have a better understanding of who I am and what I deal with.
