I went off on my sister a month ago for accusing me of something that a family member told her and not ever even trying to listen to my point of view. It all kind of hit the fan because I was sick of being the one the entire family talks shit about since both my parents died. They talk shit but refuse to ever talk to me, to help me, see how i'm doing, literally just .. nothing. Not even my biological mother cared, seeing as she kicked me out as soon as she had a reason to. And it took her a year of bitching to the family to make me basically the black swan in the family.
Today was the last day for financial aid, I have all my stuff in order, but because of a dropped semester that gave me a balance because my dad died, they won't allow me access to my courses so I can continue them and get my financial aid to cover this balance. My tax return is 2. months late and no one can tell me why. Today is literally the last day of "hope" i'd say, the IRS wait times are 2+ hours (still waiting, though), my phone is about to be turned off because of no payment, and financial aid office from school will not respond to me and neither will my "success coach" who should be back from vacation. I told them multiple times, I can't call them, I have no service, and that gets no reply what-so-ever.
The amount of times i've emailed my financial aid office for the past month is spam worthy. and i NEVER hear anything back. I have less than $0 to my name and nothing.
I did some stupid shit a few nights ago and I really wanna stop feeling this way and so unwanted. I've quit drugs, i've even quit cigarettes, i've enrolled in college and got good grades, someone lost my SS card (their fault, not mine) and I haven't got a new one yet so I can't get employment. It literally just feels like i'm trapped in this rubble of heavy shit over top of me and there's nothing I can do to get out of it, i've been fighting it for 2 months and i'm exhausted and just want it to stop.
