that this used to be such a fun place for me to be able to come and escape my real life, and now its been so tainted and slowly turned into a toxic wastepool of toxic people using other toxic people for shit
i cant help but feel like i was the punching bag and its not a good feeling. Getting that mail today about how people are still talking shit on calls constantly from a stranger was not expected and put me in this low ass mood.
I love all of you more than i'll be able to ever describe in words, no one reached out whenever bad shit happened (save for that one time), or to see how I was doing and if I was ok. I know its a 2 way street, but at the time I was in double grieving and just didnt care anymore
but yalls shit actually really fucking hurts me. and im just gonna come out and say it, im not trying to be a victim but i'm trying to express feelings from this place because it really does sadden me so much.
I know most were jokes, you know I am sensitive and I am over-emotional but i'm just telling the truth that I was/am still hurt about this shit. Then you wanna be even more childish and put my face on your memes and shit? how fucking disgusting and petty can you get?
I thought you were the dirt on my shoe but you're actually not even that. And you say you've "grown up".
i just wanted to feel appreciated and its tiring (irl and here) to get fucked over with peoples bullshit because im an easy target and I care and have my heart literally on my sleeve and thats hard to break too
anyway thanks for reading my journal entry triggered by sad music you're welcome for the insights /s
@chicc oh, im sure i've made one like this before lol. I just have a hard time getting overr things. I think I use tengaged to write more than anything else and only because i cant post shit on facebook cause its very personal lol