and willfully estraining myself from my own family might be the worst part of the whole damn thing
becoming an adult comes with awesome independence and freedom, theres no denying that;
but it also comes with a lot of fuckers who want to bleed you dry for every fucking resource you have including your personality and happiness
and I can trust easily and it seems like every month there's another person fucking me over and most of the time it comes from my own damn family until I have to cut them off for my own fucking sanity
vodka and weed is my escape lately cause everyone is fucking shitty and im lowkey mad at myself for trying to think everyone has SOME good part in them because with every single day that gets disproven time and time again
perhaps corny
but my friend once told me
"for every person starting a fire, there is also an entire group rushing to put it out"
it was very wise and I try to hold onto it, in thoughts like this.