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Big Brother and online Hunger games.

ignore (for reference 10/14/19 - 12/25/19)

Oct 14, 2019 by ShayyBayy
Am I just a fool?
Blind and stupid for loving you
Am I just a silly girl?
So young and naive to think you were
The one who had came to take claim of this heart
Cold-hearted, shame you'll remain just afraid in the dark

Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me on the floor
I'm damaged goods, for all to see
Now who would ever wanna be with me?
I've got all the baggage, drink the pills
Yeah, this is living but without the will
I'm blacking out, I'm shutting down
You left a hole when you walked out, yeah

The people are talking, the people are saying
That you have been playing my heart like a grand piano
The people are talking, the people are saying
That you have been playing my heart like a grand piano

You called me strong, you called me weak
But still your secrets, I will keep
You took for granted all the times, I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground

But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep
You've got your peace now, but what about me?
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
One last word
One last moment
To ask you why you left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me

If I go crazy, then will you still call me Superman?
If I'm alive and well, will you be there and holding my hand?

I'm not so good at hiding wholesome truths
You see it on my face when I turn blue
So punish me, I'm hanging on your noose
So pull me up so I can breathe with you


They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

I find it hard to be myself
I shed my skin for everybody else
You don't know me, what the fuck you mean?
You made me sad and you made me mean

And I always find, yeah, I always find something wrong
You been putting up with my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most

In the back of my mind I know it's hard on us
But to tell you the truth there's no more love, no more love
It's not easy to say, I’m giving up
And I've been losing count

You pick me up when I'm down, I need you around
You seen me through my darkest times
Girl, is there something that you try to find?

There's no need to argue anymore
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore
And the thing that makes me mad
Is the one thing that I had

It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me

Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore

Know that I am, even if I can't understand
I'll take the pain
Give me the truth
Me and my heart, we'll make it through

Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me

I'ma take a trip to the past off the shrooms, off the acid
Then I'll fuck a bad bitch

You're just a cannibal
And I'm afraid I won't get out alive
No, I won't sleep tonight

Hush, hush the world is quiet
Hush, hush we both can't fight it
It's us that made this mess
Why can't you understand?
Whoa, I won't sleep tonight

Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
What are you waiting for
What are you waiting for
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Well, Jesus Christ, I’m not scared to die
But I’m a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

NYS/SUNY -

[1. BLISS]
Crazy Bitch - Buckcherry

[2. HUMANITY]
I did my time, and I want out
So effusive, fade, it doesn't cut, the soul is not so vibrant

It's all in your head
It's all in my head
It's all in your head
Yeah!

[3. Symbols of Cracking]
Insane, am I the only motherfucker with a brain?
I'm hearing voices but all they do is complain
How many times have you wanted to kill
Everything and everyone, say you'll do it but never will

[4. INSECURITIES]
Ten times out of nine, I know you‘re lying
But nine times out of ten, I know you're trying
So I'm trying to be fair
And you're trying to be there and to care
And you're caught up in your permanent emotions
And all the loving I've been giving goes unnoticed
It's just floating in the air, lookie there
Are you aware you're my lifeline, are you tryna kill me?
If I wasn't me, would you still feel me?
Like on my worst day? Or am I not thirsty, enough?

[5. ESCAPISM]

The limits of the dead
The limits of the dead
The limits of the dead
The limits of the dead

This mode is incredible
It's out of this world
Too bad I must always leave it
But that's life

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