I've been so down, man..I've not been myself for such a while. I feel unclean and it's a horrible and gut wrenching feeling. It pounds like a drum in my chest, and right when I'm ready for the big finale and to finally open my eyes forever into the silence of death, it rests itself down, and goes back to normal. But what if I didn't want it to go back to normal....what if I wanted to die....then why can't that happen...life sucks so why I am I forced to keep waking up to more life, when life just spits at me? I hate everything and everyone most days, and even hating myself in the mirror whenever I look at myself. I feel like everything is hopeless and that nothing ever works out the way it's planned. I just....I just honestly feel like I don't even wanna live anymore. Life is so hard and it's so hard to find people to depend on, but I can't take going it alone. I just....ugh. I don't wish to live anymore.
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aww im sorry let me know if u need to talk < 333333333333333333333333333
Everything will be better once we officially start our life together, far away from all the hellish nightmares. So don't worry you're darling little head about a thing. I'll always be here for you my love. Things will get better, I just wish you'd talk to me when you felt like this instead of total strangers. I love you, actually love you, love you. Not this text bs of " oh ily, message me -random giggles-."
I FUCKING LOVE YOU! You are my soul. So please, don't die without me, and don't you dare think for a moment you'll have to do this alone, you know damn well I'm right here for you
