Over the past few weeks I haven't been into Tengaged anymore.
And I have been tossing around the idea of leaving.
Here's what it comes down to: I want to leave but I'm not sure I can.
I love coming on here and just talking to everyone.
But, I realized I spend too much time on here.
When I'm not home for a day I worry about not getting a challenge done or not being active enough for HoH and it's pointless. It's only a game so why should I care?
I've been here for almost a year and I've gotten black in less than 50 games. I feel like I accomplished something but I also feel I wasted my time.
It's not that I regret joining this site but I feel I let it get to my head.
There is no doubt in my mind that this site helped me whether it was just allowing me to have fun or even developing some sort of confidence in myself.
But, all good things come to an end.
As of right now I am planning on leaving and not coming back for some time. It may be forever or it might be a couple months.
I promised some people that I would join Stars and I feel that I have to keep that promise. I may come back over the summer and pick up where I left off but I'm not sure its really worth it.
I'll still be going on skype but I'm hoping it isn't as often.
If you want to talk to me you can talk to me there.
If not it was nice knowing you.
I like all the people I have met on here.
We're all pretty different from one another and its cool.
I feel like I should mention everybody that I really got close to on here but I don't think I need to.
You should know who you are and if you don't I guess our friendship or whatever you want to call it was pointless, although I hope it wasn't.
Once my castings is over I'll be going.
For now.
Maybe I just need a long break. I don't know.
I'm planning on taking one day at a time and seeing how I feel.
If I come back within a week, cool.
If not, cool.
I love you guys a lot.
But.
For right now this is what I have to do.
Well, We've been talking about this for awhile eh? :p
I don't feel sad though.
because we text eachother daily so this isn't much of a goodbye is it?
Sam, I love you. like alot, alot alot. enjoy the break. :p I'll text you later. ;)
