I'm just gonna get right into it, and yes I'm going to read off a transcript I wrote in case you don't want to watch my stupid face talk.
So...8 months ago I was permanently banned. I made one multi, as an experiment since then, and have seen people accuse me of being one account after another from Snowglobe to PrettyReckless to goldie77, and continuing to talk about me, so I figured I'd make a video to get negged into the triple digits.
I've seen people call me names for still looking at the blogs page, as if I didn't spend over a decade of my life here or as if all of my friends aren't still on the site blogging and playing games, or as if they themselves wouldn't still see what was going on if they were banned. I feel like the biggest issue for a lot of people was that permanently banning an account didn't simply make me stop *existing*.
I've seen top blogs get made about me calling me out for saying something only for there to be a top blog a week later with someone else saying the same exact things. I've learned that pretty much no one cares about anything other than fighting one another.
Is it me?
Am I the drama?
I don't think I'm the drama.
Maybe I ammm.
Am I the villain?
I don't think I'm the villain...
No you know what? I definitely deserve most if not all of it. I was (and at times continue to be!) a complete nightmare. I said and did inexcusible things that I am still apologizing to people for to this day. I treated people badly for pretty much no reason at all.
I've seen people threaten to drive to other users' houses to beat them up.
I've seen people threaten to doxx other users on countless occasions.
I've seen people spread constant COVID misinformation and act like nothing short of an incel.
I've seen constant cases of grooming children come up and bans issued, with many more to go.
Yet I chose to focus my energy on petty bullshit in the past.
I've tried to be a better person, a lot in part to Josh/Delete2544 who gets so much flack because of me, which is probably a good portion of why I sympathize with BrittBritt more now than I did in the past. I'm on better terms with a lot of people that I didn't get along with in the past, but I've got a long way to go. If you're someone I've wronged feel free to kindly or unkindly point it out in a comment somewhere and I'm sure I'll see it.
As someone who has now been banned for something like 8 months, I think that there needs to be some sort of appeal process for bans that is more formal than sending message after message to the mods on Discord to try to plead a case. I was banned in April without the possibility of ever making a new account. The reason I was given was "for threatening to doxx another user". I resorted to it only because of constant harassment which I reported to randomize himself and got the response of "sorry these things will happen".
Months later I created a multi (tHope317) as an experiment to see if it would be fun and go unnoticed. It was not, and it did. I grew tired of having to pretend to be an entirely different person, so I revealed it and had it banned. Afterwards I was told that it would be likely after discussion that I would be able to make a new account in 90 days. That was later walked back and I've received radio silence since. I don't know if that's because no one cares, because theres dozens of people who also harass them every day, or for some other reason. I do think that this moderation team has been better than most, but wish there was a way to dispute a decision. In this case, it was "randomize's decision" to not allow me to return back in April, and why I still don't have any account at all.
I hope at some point in the future that I will be allowed an account as plenty of other users who were banned by randomize have been.
Until then, sorry for being a nightmare and I'll continue to work at being a more calm and collected person (and probably fail a lot on the way).
honestly i saw this and i was like ?? plz not him still going about this... but honestly im all for a good second chance and after watching this hseems to be taking accountability n growing... good for him!! wouldnt be mald if he came back and actually did show growth from his time away!!
I find this blog very half good half bad.
Like I agree other people have done the same and worse and didnt get banned and agree there. I don’t even necessarily think Johnny should be permed.
But also the “radio silence” comment isn’t the best coming from someone who was on the site for a decade and knows randomize doesn’t care about this website. In those 8 months randomize probably said “they can’t have accounts again” then probably also only got into contact with these mods again like maybe 3-4 times. It shouldn’t be a surprise they haven’t had anything new.
Also although funny and I agree with it. The sportsgeek mention and picture just makes it feel like if he doesn’t agree with you he may still harass you over things. Idk there’s a lot of growth shown, but he couldn’t make this blog without shading someone either.
Survivor8 I personally think, and am willing to have this discussion, that there's a big difference between me harassing someone for a petty personal reason over a game vs. poking fun at a user who has harassed the female users of the website & consistently promoted COVID disinformation. I think one (subjectively) funny comment about another person isn't harassment.
But like I said, I'm more open to hearing and taking feedback from people so if that's frowned upon I won't make jokes about anyone.
Colter like I said I don't disagree with what was said, but also like I blogged earlier tengaged brings out the worst in people. So how do we know once he's back on the site he's not back to doing the same things? I don't think Johnny is a bad person, maybe a bad tengaged person which is different. But it starts with harmless jokes about people like sportsgeek and then changes to people who take him out of a frooks for a petty reason, ya know?
Like I said I don't necessarily think Johnny should have been permed. This also isn't an argument against Johnny being unbanned. I'd be all for a like disciplinary period where the mods (not randomize) and maybe like the mod committee or whatever decide what happens.
I'm pretty sure mods have already said that
1. They can't overturn bans done by randomize and
2. Randomize has said that he doesn't want johnny or Dallas to return to the site
So mods can't really do anything, they can't allow him back if they don't have permission from rando
