I know I'm not always the most serious but honestly we need to start normalizing about depression and other mental illnesses especially during this panoramic.
As someone who generally has a harder time during the winter months with motivation to get out of bed, I truly lost the sense of myself a couple of months ago. I was fucking exhausted waking up everyday and logging into zoom calls for 8-12 hours straight and it got to the point where I started to become unreliable, was missing deadlines and had trouble stringing together cohesive thoughts. I started to randomly cry and withdrew from my friends and family. There were points where I wished something bad would happen to me like being run off the road while driving just so I could have a break from what was happening around me. My confidence was at an all time low and I felt like I was a burden.
I know people say this all the time but you might not see it until you get on the other side of it - it does get better & you are loved. I've been in counseling and started antidepressants about six weeks ago and things are so much better than they were a few months ago.
If you need someone to reach out to, please message me as someone who might be able to relate to some of your feelings or a loved one and start the conversations because things might have turned out differently if I hadn't.
