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PaulaDeen

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  1. idk if yall into t-shirts
  2. You ever root for 1 person
  3. im like 2 weeks late
  4. im so sweaty
  5. I need to address
  6. Casually listening to an old country song
  7. No title
  8. FIRE
  9. hey
  10. Gift me trixie
  11. The best animated character of all time
  12. Straight Guy: *breathes*
  13. i miss
  14. i have to pee
  15. Katy Perry's worst song?
  16. I just watched the movie Glass
  17. tag hot gay guys
  18. im jealous
  19. I think ME!
  20. I was left
  21. This is the part of me
  22. a blood level negged all my blogs?
  23. did you neg my blog?
  24. Break up with your girlfriend
  25. i hope wildboy12
  26. why was wildboy12 arrested
  27. Logging off
  28. who should i support in stars
  29. i have to poop
  30. Hey now you're an all star
  31. if you ever wanna cringe
  32. post more stuff for me to rank
  33. if you use HBO Hulu thing
  34. No title
  35. post more stuff for me to rank
  36. post literally anything
  37. MY D*CK SMELLS LIKE FISH
  38. post some tengagers
  39. the struggles im facing
  40. WHY HASNT

a week ago

Apr 8, 2019 by PaulaDeen
when everyone was posting the blogs remembering matt64 or whatever, i was among those that were like why are you blogging this, they arent gonna read it, its just wanting attention. but today i found out that one of my best friend's friend killed himself. i didnt know the guy personally. and me and my friend joke about killing ourselves all the time. so did he and his friend. until his friend killed himself on friday. I didnt even know him but he was 18, and my friend showed me a video of him on wednesday of them hanging out and singing and having fun. now i feel dumb for how i felt last week about all the blogs. I feel like not only is it in dedication for the ones that have taken their own lives, but a reminder to everyone that even the happiest of people go through hard shit, and may need someone to talk to. And also a reminder to anyone that is going through it that it will indeed affect a lot of fucking people that they don't even realize. now i feel terrible about how i viewed the blogs from last week. I'm going to make it a personal mission of mine to spread more positivity in the environment around me instead of joking with my friends about how my job makes me want to kill myself. It's not really funny or "relatable". Maybe if I do that then the death of this kid that I didn't even know will have at least the smallest amount of impact on the world.

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