And I know it's cause of my own doing through being a horrid, toxic bitch, but I'm a horrid, toxic bitch cause I have trust issues and am overly sensitive and easily damaged to the point where the slightest thing will set me off cause I don't know how much more I can take.
I feel like one big mistake and I keep trying to tell myself to look at everything with a glass half full attitude, but I just feel like a burden to everyone and it feels like anyone who gives me the time of day only does so out of pity. I just feel like I have no one which, instead of having that make me try to get closer to others, just pushes me away from everyone else.
I'm slowly but surely just crawling deeper and deeper into my shell and at this point I'm just holding 5743982378439 things in and I don't know how much longer I can hold shit in for.
I know this whole blog sounds attention-seeking, self-victimizing, and cringe, but I just wanted an outlet to get this out. Hope this makes me feel better somehow.
Comments
hey i know things didnt end well for us but i hope you feel better soon! :]
Ur a good person deep down baby but real talk u just need to get rid of whatever toxicity and potential trauma u have that causes u to act the way u do and I rly do hope u can figure that out and work through that because ur such a sweetie otherwise
Good luck n Ik we don't talk but I'm always here if u need! Kisses
