TBH i don't know what it was. If i am being honest, I had a troubled past with people being super flamboyant to me and it would create such uncomfortable situations for me in the past. It was damn near, if not full on assault to me. I've never been a hater of gays at all and these positions I was forced into just gave me perspective when I was younger. and maybe that is what turned me off of liking Zeke in MvGX.
but holy fuck, I have so much respect for him after tonight. I cannot imagine what he was and is still probably going through. Props to him and I hope he does well this season and in life.